Do you ever feel like you’re doing it wrong?
Sometimes, I feel like after I do a spell or a gratitude exercise, things get weirdly more stressful or a situation pops up that gives me mild anxiety.
Example: Pink moon just happened, I do a gratitude exercise, helped my friends make their own wards for their rooms, and then did a private spell on my own to get rid of limiting beliefs.
Three days later: my Verizon bill is all jacked up, there’s a third line I never authorized on my account, and now I’m spending hours on the phone with customer service and spending $75 to get it half resolved (still working it out).
I know this is a small example that could be written off as “life happens” but it just feels like EVERY TIME. Every time I try to do something with good intention and meaning, it feels like I’m pulled back energetically a bit. I’m really trying to clear my head and do this practice from the bottom of my heart, especially when spells are involved.
I just feel so stuck. I love this world and these practices, I just don’t always feel like they love me back, you know?