is anyone here really into absurdism?
i am into it. I feel there are no meaning underneath everything for a long time (since I was a little boy) but I cannot say or tell what it is until I read Camus. From the Stranger to The Plague and The myth of Sisyphus. I feel like everything deep inside my heart is written by him. But the idea of revolt is brilliant to me. Yet I cannot accept it. Because there is no motivation. I can only survive because someone needs me, family, children ...
Now I fall into something I call drifting. I do things that needed to do. Without the happiness. I know that happiness is no need for a absurdism man. Man! I am not in the revolt state. Just lucid state.
tell me. Do you believe in absurdism? What is your status now? How do you feel? Can you keep this for the rest of your life? Or should we betray ourself by religion or some meaning of life that we already know that is absurd? tell me? because I'm so tired.