I’m disabled, yay!
But that means I have too much time on my phantom hands, and my existing friends get bored of my texts.
Please reach out! I will probably vent at you - please don’t be afraid to ask anything.
This happened when I (F early 20s) was 15.
People at school used to mess with me every day. Nothing really mental, just enough that I hated going there. One night I ended up trying to hurt myself for the first time. I wasn’t trying feeling suicidal, just wanted a reason not to go back to school for a couple of days, and maybe some sympathy.
My plan was to tell everyone I dropped a kitchen knife and grabbed for it without thinking. But I cut way deeper than I meant to and damaged a tendon in my hand.
They kept me in hospital overnight because of the tendon injury. At that point I thought it was going ok.
But then I picked up a serious infection in the hospital. It got into my blood. I spent months there after that, most of it drugged up or confused.
I obv survived, but they had to amputate both my arms and both my legs.
That was years ago and I still think about how stupid and small the original problem was compared to what happened after. I was just trying to avoid school for a couple days.