It’s gotten embarrassing
I’m collapsing under the weight of my terrible decisions and self control. I had to have one of my original rats put to sleep a few weeks ago, which had to go on the credit card, and between that, another £600 vet bill for another pet, I’ve opened the floodgates on my credit.
It’s embarrassing, how much I’ve stuffed things up: luckily I have good credit so I’ve just got a no interest balance transfer card with a long interest free balance transfer period to try to get this sorted out in an affordable way.
I’m selling everything I can - craft supplies (doing a crafter de-stash market tomorrow), I have stuff up on Vinted and I got £50 on marketplace this week.
I stood in my craft room, looking around at the torrent of stuff, and I had a panic attack, feeling so overwhelmed, and just wailed ‘why am I like this’. I will hopefully sell a large amount of stuff tomorrow, and even if I don’t get much for it, every little bit helps. Whatever is not sold will go to a car boot sale in a couple of weeks with anything else I can find
I’ve had so many false starts with no spends. But by god I need this right now. I shouldn’t be this broke, I shouldn’t be this stressed about everything.