Afraid to reenter society
Nursing school messed me up so bad I haven't even been able to start working as a nurse yet. I graduated almost a year ago, and have had many opportunities to start work, but I haven't been able to bring myself to do it because my anxiety gets in the way.
While it has gotten a better, my anxiety is extremely physical. I get chest pain/palpitations, my whole body goes weak, I start to feel really hot and unwell, and I get faint/dizzy. These symptoms have caused me to become agoraphobic because I'm afraid of becoming sick in public.
I genuinely want to go back to work and start my career, but I just don't know how to tell when I'm ready. Its been so hard for me to accept where I'm at right now, which is probably 50% of the battle. The other 50% is that nursing itself is a really hard career. I have no idea how to tell if I have the energy to even try.
Any advice for me?