Language is so difficult.
I find that, and while I know it’s a cognitive symptom or whatever, I have so many issues with language. While I am attempting to learn Russian, but am hardly dedicated, so I’d say English is my only language, it’s almost like I struggle intensely with it. I’ll forget the meaning of words, I’ll have to grasp for words, I’ll make words up, I’ll insert words that don’t make sense, especially when I’m not masking. It makes me feel like I’m not smart at all. It’s only been for the past couple years, but that’s really when I started to decline.
Luckily, I have a partner who can figure out what I’m trying to say since he’s been with me for so long, and my language has somewhat improved since I’ve changed antipsychotics, but I still feel like I’m really lacking. Thank you for reading.