Call me Luffy, because I'm going to be king of the pirates!
April 13th I was in white settlement Texas. Right near Ridgmar mall. I had a revelation. If I stay I'm dead. I kept on repeating cycles of self destruction. I thought I wasn't good enough to exist. I chose the nickname Illy to show I'm from Philly and more importantly to remind myself to treat people with love even on my worst days. I decided on the 13th that if death was staring me in my face then the only other option I have is to chase my dreams. I decided right then to start walking. I wasted like 3 hours walking aimlessly. Finally came to the conclusion that I wanted to go experience the west coast. Requirements being the ocean and the mountains being in close proximity. So Port Angeles, Washington became my destination. I won't say I've had the hardest life nor the easiest. I've lived my life. Every decision I've made has made me who I was. I'm taking the traits that I liked about old me. Contemplating what to keep and what to discard. I'm in the process of rebuilding my sense of my own identity. There was a time where I met a girl who made me think. Wow she's smart, funny, beautiful, independent. I want a girl like her. But gals like her dont like guys like me. How do I become the type of guy that a girl like her likes because that's who I want to become. I'm taking that same energy and applying to obtaining my dreams. First step is to make it to Washington State... Well Port Angeles. Second step get a foundation of stable urban camping (homeless for those who prefer that perspective). From that point until completion of my A.I. project I will dedicate all of my time to building it minus sleep and other necessities. I already sent the pitch deck to Microsoft. I haven't heard back. I'll reach back out when I've built it. Maybe then they will respond. Point is I believe I've solved a problem that no one thought to fix, or knew could be a thing. Hopefully everything goes well enough to allow me to earn a small 3% royalty fee which will be more than enough to buy land, build my house, secure my future, my kids future and their kids future. Once that is taken care of. My dream is to spend the rest on charity. I don't mean donating to a charity so they can print flyers. No I mean doing actual work. I want to buy land and build a homeless city in essence. Make it as close to self sustaining as possible. Give people a chance to rebuild once and move on not stay stuck in the cycle of getting so close to ok then something happens and they have to rebuild from scratch. At this point I want to invite my dream girl to a self hosted self funded charity event. Dont get me wrong I want to ask her out... She's my dream girl... But to be honest my primary reason is to thank her for inspiring me to chase my dreams. Even if she says no to a date. Her inspiration led me to having the capacity to leave this planet with a dent of kindness. If I can thank her for that then my dream is complete. Anything else is icing on the cake.