1.7lakhs gone , 11th wasted what to do?
1.7lakhs gone, 11th wasted . What to do?
I'm a 16 year old kid [I'm maybe autistic]. I wasted my 11th . it was a coaching class bothra maybe ya all know . Its in ahemdabad. It had been about 1.7lakh inr a year (not saying they taught bad or anything but it definitely didn't help ] . This year my family is quite struggling and can't really pay . We already paid a 30kinr advance but it doesn't really matter tbh . I was quite depressed for the last 3years and i didn't really study well . I'm a bit better now . Had a month long vacation. I studied alone during the vacation via oneshots online from pw and ai . I'd say i learnt much more and can do most mains level questions now . I feel like i wasted my 11th in the coaching class and i could've had done more. [ I Convinced my parents to let me leave that coaching class and study online . ]
IMP PART
I haven't really learnt much from my 11th to be honest . Whatever i learnt was from this months vacation where i also spent time learning german , philosophy and playing chess . However now that i convinced my parents to let me study online , what batch in pw should i do?
Note :- I can't really handle stress well . And my parents can spend under 40k . I'd prefer to learn from pw as i really like saleem sir and others tbh . I looked up at the infinity pro stuff is it good? Also one of the reasons i couldn't study in my tuition was because the lights were too bright and i lietrally couldn't focus on the board . Maybe I'm autistic ( i looked up i fit all the traits but maybe not idk I'm no psychologist) i really do love learning btw
THANK YOU to Whoever read this and helped me with advice on what to do . I will read every comment however helpful . Thank you again everyone .ALSO i dont mind taking a drop as long as im learning :>