u/goldeaglec

I'm a co-worship leader in our church and a drummer by trade. I had the idea to clap during part of a song where I playing on 2+4 on the bass drum. In the actual song they accent the bass drum with the floor Tom. Co-worship leader liked the idea so we planned to have our spouses clap along with us in the congregation to try to get things going. Typically, we are not a hand clapping or hand raising church. We are trying to stretch us in that aspect in worship. Our senior pastor is also on vacation so we couldn't run it past him if we could clap during the song. The elders said I was not allowed to clap during the song. I felt defeated, hurt, and angry when I was denied clapping. I feel it's something that shouldn't have to be run through leadership. It's something that should be allowed to happen. Allow the Holy Spirit to move in whatever way it wants. I wanted to do it personally because I'm trying to grow myself. I thought about leaving the church. I'm just looking for feedback. Maybe my heart posture is wrong and I should keep trying.