u/glitterlovegirl

Hi guys.

My cat gracie passed away on Wednesday. I’ve been crying nonstop and beyond devastated. She was 14 1/2 years old and we had her since she was a kitty. Over half of my life was spent with this angel.

Gracie was not just a cat. She was my lifeline. The reason my heart beat. The reason I’ve stayed for as long as I have. My anchor. My world. My soul.

Gracie was a Russian Blue and was supposed to be a family cat. She tolerated the other family members but it turns out, RB only bond with one person, and I was blessed to be bonded with her. Gracie followed me around everywhere even in the bathroom! Anywhere I was, you would find Gracie right by my side. She was my sidekick who helped me overcome the many battles I have faced, we conquered them together. She grounded me on my extra rough mental health days. She knew when I was sad. She was there for me when others weren’t. She never left my side like some people in my life did. She never judged me or bullied me like others have. It was unconditional love and loyalty. She knew her name and a few commands.

Although a senior cat, Gracie did not act her age. She still played with me and tussled with my other cat. She never had an aggressive bone in her body towards me or other people. She got was chill with them but nothing ever came close to the bond we had.

I brought her into the vet on tuesday thinking it would just be a routine check up because she had lost weight pretty fast and I wanted to put her on a prescription diet. She was a tiny bit lethargic the night before so I was definitely concerned about that. The events that followed I could’ve never predicted. The vet had called telling us. We need to take her to the ER immediately because she was severely anemic. I was shocked. We had no idea she was anemic. we brought her to the ER thinking oh she’s just gonna need some medication and fluids that’s it. No. She had multiple blood transfusions and a plasma transfusion. This was also shocking that it happened so fast.

The next day we went to visit her just thinking we’re gonna see how she’s doing and hopefully she’s improving after all that but in fact, she got worse. Her heart was starting to give out, they think she had cancer, she was internally bleeding, her colon was falling apart and the anemia. The vet told us she had a 15% chance of surviving the night if even that. we went to visit her with the intention of just hanging out with her for a little bit, and then I see her body with machines and IVs. She was sedated and weak but I believe she held on for us until we got there, even though we didn’t go in with the intention of thinking, we would have to humanely euthanize her. When I had alone time with herself, knowing that that was gonna have to be the option, she used all of her strength to stretch her arm out so I could touch her paw. Again, she was heavily sedated and super weak, but yet moved her paw out from under her body and stretched it so I could pet her toe beans and paw. I was trying to talk to her so much and it was so difficult because I kept getting choked up and bawling my eyes out. I had that alone time with her on my lap, even though she was hooked up to machines just telling her how she’s the best kitty ever and how much I love her.

then we had to grapple with the hardest decision I’ve ever made, which was she would have to be humanely euthanized. We brought her into the comfort room and by the time we got there from the ICU to that room, keep in mind. It was probably less than 300ft. away from the actual ICU, her heartbeat was hardly there very faint. she was wrapped up in blankets, and I held her like a baby in my arms and kept crying on her and telling her how much I loved her and how she was the best kitty ever and such a good girl. then they did it. part of my soul died alongside her when she passed.

The one part I take solace in is that she didn’t pass with a struggle or any noises, she passed very peacefully surrounded by love. Also, that I was able to comfort her one last time as she comforted me every single time.

that was my baby. My whole world has collapsed. this all happened within 28 hours and I could’ve never predicted that this was gonna happen. My life will never be the same without her in it. She was my entire life.

I was so blessed to have her as my soul companion.

this type of bond cannot be replicated in human form or with another animal. She was the light in the darkness in my life. Even though she’s not here physically anymore, I believe that she’s right by my side still. I believe that I will have a reunion with her one day and I will never let her go. I will kiss her on all of her favorite spots. Tell her exactly what I had told her everyday and when she passed, “good girl Gracie you’re the best kitty ever. I love you so much.”

until then, I will cherish all the memories I had with her, even though I’m beyond devastated and miss her so much. I loved her with every ounce of my being.

thank you, Gracie for always being by my side. I love you more than words could describe.

8/20/11-4/15/26

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Hi guys.

on Wednesday I lost my anchor. My lifeline. My baby that I had for 14 1/2 years. I’m in complete shock. I’m completely devastated. when we got the cat as our family cat initially, we didn’t realize that Russian blues only latch onto one person usually and she chose me. Ever since that moment of her choosing me, our bond has been unbreakable. She has been the one thing that’s been helpful for my mental health my whole life and now she’s gone. I will remember all of the times I had with her. There was never one bad moment with her. She was never aggressive towards me whatsoever. She followed me everywhere. She knew her name and a few commands. She was my other half.

her passing was so unexpected because it all started from a routine vet check up to get her on a prescription diet to them calling us saying we needed to bring her into an ER ASAP because she was severely anemic. we found out she had a slew of other health issues, which is crazy considering she didn’t exhibit ANY signs of illness except the night before the vet she was lethargic. given her state, multiple blood transfusions and a plasma transfusion, found out she possibly had cancer, internally bleeding, colon falling apart, heart issues, the ER vet said she wouldn’t make it through the night. We went to visit her to check up on her, not knowing that that was the last time we would see her before she would pass. with the vet telling us she had a 15% chance of surviving the night if even that, that’s when we decided we were gonna humanly euthanize her a decision I didn’t think was even in the realm of possibilities given that the day before she was just going to the vet for what I thought was going to be a check up and to get a prescription diet.

given that she was my cat basically and only bonded with me I held onto her and her final moments. She was wrapped in blankets. I talked to her, cried on her, pet her, kissed her all of that. thankfully, she passed peacefully without a struggle.

She was my baby. My everything. Our bond was unlike anything else. I’m completely devastated and shocked. I will cherish all of our memories together. She refused to leave my side even when I went to bathroom. I know she is still by my side, just not physically anymore.

Gracie was more than a cat. She was my lifeline and anchor. Part of my soul died when she did. I have been crying nonstop. All day. I am so grateful to have her as my bonded companion for life, even if she is not physically here anymore. when I see her again, it will be a reunion like no other. I will hold onto her and never let her go. I will kiss her around all of her favorite spots. I will keep telling her what I always told her, “Good girl Gracie, you’re the best kitty ever. You’re my little baby.” Of course I called her my baby even though she was a senior kitty.

She was a constant in my life. The light in the darkness. The reason my heart beat.

Rest in peace to my soul companion, Gracie. thank you for always helping me with my mental health and everything else in life. I love you with all of my heart. ❤️‍🩹

Until we meet again, Gracie.

Thank you.