Dreading feeding when baby wakes
I’m a FTM with a 3 week old bubba. Breastfeeding most of the time and occasionally offering him bottles of expressed milk (so his dad can also feed/give me a rest). So far there have been no issues with feeding - supply is great, babies latch is good, he’s piling on weight etc…
What I have found difficult however is a feeling of dread that washes over me when bubba wakes up and I realise it’s time to feed him. When he actually gets on the boob the feeling goes away completely and I realise ‘oh this is totally fine’ but before that I just feel so tired and defeated and like it’s too much responsibility for me to be his source of food?
Again, it’s only when he wakes up and before the feed (not during). Has anyone else experienced this? Like anticipatory dread of breastfeeding, but then the feeding is actually fine??