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Not sure yet, but i start to seem a connection between TRE and my mood going down a lot after, even with only 5 min every other day.

How likely is this?

I am neurodivergent/adhd/gifted/sensitive, i've read that this can affect it as well and positive + negative emotions are both quite intense for me. Example; i will also cry out of gratitude a few times per week or when the weather is really nice or i listen to good music.

I am already doing a lot of downregulating activities like walking in nature for 1 to 2 hours per day. Vipassana meditation. And generally try to slow down a lot.

Also have some gut an sleep issues (wake up in the middle of the night for a few hours, seems to be related to bloodsugar stemming from gut issues). Also good to know i can not really build muscle properly, i think this says something about the stress my system is under but probably also due to poor sleep.

I do not have a full time job anymore, i have restarted studying, which is not so stressful for me and doesnt require much time so i have alot of free time where i try to do thing i enjoy. I am 27 atm

I already scaled down on time a lot, but i would say i am in some way quite unstable. Even though my mood is good most of the time and stabilithy is increasing, sometimes in life i have setbacks through which i cope with smoking cannabis (mixed with tabacco) for a few days. Then my body needs to recover after quitting. Like now i had some recent smoking, but i quit 10 days ago, maybe thats too early also to start TRE again?

What do you think? All perspectives are welcome.

Edit: ok I will scale down in time even more. How do I know my dosing is right? I read I should feel integrated and grounded afterwards? Is that the main indicator?

Seems like a similar thing to me. Yet fidgeting is not known to taxing the NS or can cause overdoing symptoms. Why?

I am a big Spotlight search user, mostly just for opening my apps. It always used to be perfect, i would type in 1 or 2 characted and the app i wanted to find showed up 1st position.

But since a few months, spotlight search is so inconsistent, sometimes it works fine, but most often completely irrelevant search results come up. Think some random Podcast episode, or the most random file in the most random folder somewhere on my drive.

Anyone relates?

I've read before that Jung recommended not to do inner work or analysis at a younger age and start focussing on building a life and identity first.

First, i never understood that, the inner work made me feel better, gave me a sense of control in a world where i only felt confused.

But now I am 27, and the same inner work starts to feel like a recurring cycle i am stuck in. Like Jung said, i realise i actually have almost nothing in the sense of what i've built up in life. I only have some pretty strickt mental model i place everything in to for it to make sense.

The years long obsession/interest in to psychology was nothing more then coping for me. I do not think this was much about healing. But it was all about creating a sense of control and clarity.

What i was trying to do with inner work, get happier and solve my issues, just created an bigger gap in between me and my solution. I realise to heal, to work on myself, i do not need complex mental models. I need to take action, place myself in to the world, have experiences.

This is the most difficult step for me now, and i've been feeling a bit stuck in this cycle for some time now. The inner work, the analysis, maybe gave me some sense of security. But now i would say its almost useless in my next step. And it works even against my growth. I need to transcend my thoughts, and fuck that is so hard, i've been working this mind for many years. Only to find out now, it is of no use for me anymore at this moment.

How do you even do that? At 27 i am also becoming more aware that my mind is not as flexible as it used to be, like it's filled with stuff now. And that stuff seems of great importance to me. How do i still make that shift? I think i can do it, but it seems like such a huge heroic task. Just remind myself to focus on small steps.

Just a little rant. Also maybe want to share my experience for people going down the same path. Your mind is not the answer, taking action is.

I do not regret my path, i just really really hope i can make this pivot as i feel like staying on the path on the detached intellectual will make me end up like a lonely loser 😞