Opinions plase
Hi I’m a 21 yr old cis lesbian who’s been out since I was 16. I never told my parents till about a month ago, because they are very religious and I knew they wouldn’t approve. And i was right.
Important for context, I also grew up with a very complicated relationship with my father. I used to be the favorite and when I turned 11 or 12, it was like he stopped liking me because I started forming opinions. So I spent most of my teenage years believing my father didn’t like me.
I am very confident in my lesbianism. I have never been interested in pursuing a relationship with a man, being physical with them, or connecting with them. In the past year, I met a guy much older than me, who I was able to bond with over shared music taste, desire for learning more about his point of view in life, etc. he happens to be a very nice man. Well-mannered, attentive, kind, etc. He is, however, triple my age. And he definitely is attracted to me physically, mentally, and emotionally. I have been playing along with it for a year now, but he knows I’m not interested in men. The reason why we are friends despite that is because he happens to like me as a person.
I’m a very anxious person, and I think I also may have some ocd tendencies. Lately our interactions have grown more and more endearing and intimate (not physically), and I’ve started to worry whether I’m truly a lesbian or not.
I have never felt this way towards any other man ever in my life. And I think the reason why I’m so worried about this is because of my daddy issues. The guy is triple my age. I genuinely enjoy his company and his friendship. But that’s it.
Would like some opinions.
Thank you