Hello. I got back to genshin after 3 years gap. Tbh I have no idea how these new banners work. I've heard before there might be a chance for liyue banner in may, but since it's may and we have a fontaine banner, is there any chance that liyue one will be in version 6.6?
I don't have money for therapy. It's unachievable goal for me. It's pricey, I still have no job and my mom barely pays our bills. I'm a fresh adult just for clarification.
Thing is my anxiety is worse than ever. I'm afraid of everything. I'm scared of my cat because I think she might hurt me. I'm very scared of the darkness because I imagine someone is standing beside my bed. I'm afraid of riding on the bus because I fear someone might attack me with a knife. I literally rode for an hour today, tensed asf, because I was sure the guy behind me will stab me in back of the head.
I'm anxious 24/7, no rest even in sleep because I have nightmares. Strong social anxiety too although I'm trying to overcome it. I'm talking to people, trying to smile, some days it's better but mostly it's bad.
Idk what to do. I'm scared my own mom will poison me or kill me in my sleep. I'm scared of tripping and falling under the car. Noises startle me, any noises, not even loud. I was also diagnosed with OCD a lot years ago (I was 13) and I don't think it ever went away. Gotta check everything in my house before I go out and even if I did so I still can't fully enjoy any outside activity because I actively worry about my apartment and a cat inside of it. About my mom, sister and her daughter. About my girlfriend.
How to fight it on my own? There MUST be some ways, I don't believe humanity was unable to overcome this sickness for all these years without therapy which is relatively new. What to do? I can't live like this
I already asked on a different sub but I'm self conscious about my Adams apple being barely visible in this pic. I'm non stop told I look "soft" or "gently"
1,5 years on T later and almost nothing changed in my appearance. Do I not soul pass enough to have any change? How is this possible bro, I'm posting my pics asking for tips and people are saying that there's nothing I can do pre-testosterone. Brutal. My guy who is like, typical alternative trans 'boy', already has a goatee and I'm stuck with maybe 5 neck hairs. Skinny asf and ugly, always balancing between being clocky or looking like a lesbian.
And don't get me started on how stigmatized I feel whenever someone discovers I am indeed a tranny. Ppl either hates me even if they seemed to like me before, or stupid ass girls get excited and want to put make up on me??? Tf is up with yall.
It's over