I lost my anchor. Will I find her again?
I lost my best friend 3 days ago and I feel so lost without her. She was 13.5 and lived a wonderful life filled with love, but I wasn’t ready to let her go, and I ultimately had to let her go while trying to figure out how to save her from whatever was going on. I did everything I could to try to get to the bottom of what was going on, but she just was too sick to survive it. I didn’t know how bad it was and it happened so fast. I thought we had a few more years.
My life revolved around her. I want to believe she will come back to me or I will be able to feel her presence again. I do think maybe I still feel her with me, like she’s part of my soul, but maybe that’s the grief. I feel so bad watching my other animals try to find their new normal without her as well. She was just such a source of stability for all of us. I don’t know what to do without her.