I Need help tw weight,cal
When is it actually allowed to do sports again? So, a little background: I'm 16 years old, 159 cm tall, and haven't had my period for about 450 days. Actually, I lost it for the first time because of drastic weight loss within a year. I severely restricted my diet, sometimes eating only 500 calories or less, and burned over 1000 calories.
Within six months, I went from 53 kg to 39 kg. But I couldn't keep losing weight, and I continued to do very intense exercise, like running. I went for walks that lasted for several hours. Anyway, it all started in 2025. In 2025, I wanted to change something and walked 20 km every day for a month and a half. I didn't eat that much more, but I did eat a bit more. My diet was still very unbalanced and very high in protein, and I gained weight back up to 46 kg in three months. Unfortunately, I also developed bulimia, but it wasn't frequent, except for occasions when I really, really ate a lot.
From December 2025 to April, I actually lost weight again, down to about 44 kg. The thing is, I started walking 20,000 steps every day in February, and that was obviously a setback because I was constantly in a calorie deficit. The deficits didn't go above 500 calories anymore, but still. And then came a shocking turn of events for me. My mother and I went to the gynecologist, and my blood was tested. It turned out to be at the level of an 80-year-old grandmother—my hormones were all over the place. This really shook me up, so on March 18, 2026, I decided to do a recovery program.
Things progressed relatively quickly, and I was eating absolutely everything. I was truly desperate. I just couldn't control myself anymore. There were days when I ate a total of 7,000 calories or so, with a surplus of around 6,000 calories. I have to say, I'm still drinking extra calories on the side. I know it's not good, but I just can't stop. It was really stressful; I had no control anymore. Sometimes I ate four bars of chocolate and felt miserable every single evening. I had such terrible gas and it was truly awful, and I gained about three kilos today, because my actual weight is currently around 47.4 kg and today is May 1st. I'm slowly losing my mind because I'm torn between not caring and wanting to eat everything without restricting myself, which I'm really trying to do, but somehow I'm losing my shape and getting that bulge in my stomach again, and it's driving me crazy.
So, since March 18th, I've completely stopped exercising and I'm trying to move as little as possible. During the week, it's usually less than 10,000 steps because I'm at school, so I can do less, and on weekends it's usually only 4,000 or 5,000. When can I start again? I just want to go for walks again, even just 20 steps, anything at all. I usually go riding on Fridays and then to the horse on Sundays to try and exercise it, but that's it.
I absolutely can't control my excess weight. So, I never go below a surplus of around 500 calories, but there are a few days when I lose control and end up with a surplus of 3000 or 4000 calories, totaling 5000, and it's starting to get to me. Maybe someone can help me. Something else I should mention: what do you think the chances are of me getting my period back by June 25th? Because that's the date my gynecologist says I absolutely have to get it, otherwise I'll have to take medication, and I don't want to do that. How much do you estimate I need to lose due to my weight?