Hello everyone, I just got the diagnosis today after 2 years of amenorrhea, and I can’t really wrap my head around the fact that I am 21 and infertile. Sorry, there’s no real point to this post, but I have barely stopped crying for hours and I just am hoping to hear from someone who has been through this.
I’m a long distance runner so I always assumed my menstrual issues were due to my lifestyle, but now I know that there is nothing I can do, and I will never have a biological child. Obviously there are other ways to have a family but I am just absolutely crushed. I just can’t shake this inexplicable and completely irrational guilt, as if I chose this.
Additionally, of course I will need to start HRT and I am terrified of weight gain and throwing my already precarious body image through a loop. I have an endocrinologist appointment next week, and I don’t know if I can even bring this up as a concern? It seems trivial and vain to bring up my weight, but gaining will have a big impact on my life.
I apologise for coming on here just to complain, it’s not the end of the world I know, but I just feel really lost.