I lost my best friend and I am heartbroken
3 weeks ago she was fine, she may have been blind and partially deaf but she was herself. Within a week and a half she became lethargic, stopped eating, sleeping most days, and hiding in weird spots which is what alarmed me the most because that’s what cats do when they are about to pass and don’t want to be seen in pain. Sometime during that week and a half towards the end of it, she couldn’t even hold herself up on her hind legs, and she was bleeding from her mouth. Immediately set up a vet appointment and was told she had a cancerous mass in her mouth and we didn’t have much longer than a week with her. This pretty baby was there for me in times when no one else was. She started off as a stray in Florida and was taken to Arizona to live with my uncle and his wife. They treated her terribly and she was very overweight and stressed. When we got her we rehabilitated her back to health and she was full of energy, very active and extremely vocal which I loved. Whenever I went to bed she was right there next to me purring. I miss her purring and greeting me at the door so much. And having such little time to decide which way I wanted her to go. Painless and like falling asleep, or in pain til the end and I chose to have her euthanized. Watching the life drain from her eyes is an image I will never be able to forget. I miss her so much and have been crying so much. I would do anything to hold, pet her, hear her meow or feel her soft fur. She was cremated and I got a clay paw print, a paper blank of her paw print which I intend on getting tattooed, a bunch of her hair and It’s been so fucking depressing. I loved her more than any human being. And watching her decline to a mere 7 pound cat who couldn’t walk by herself or eat just made everything harder. She passed last week and I don’t know how to grieve. This is my first time dealing with a pet passing away. I still have her collar and all her favorite toys near her memorial in my room. I just hope she’s not in pain anymore. I loved her so so much and I always will. I love you my sweet girl, Lygi.