I am a vietnamese who can speak better english than my own language. It was fine at first but now the cracks are starting to show.
At age 6, I was able to speak fluent american english by myself. At first, my family and I thought that this was a cool little skill that i have picked up for myself. I started excelling in my english classes so much that a 10/10 score was the norm for me in that subject. But overtime, I started to talk less and less vietnamese and more and more english, so much to the point that i was failing my Vietnamese-related classes (Liturature, history, etc...). I was worried about my future for a bit until i eventualy got over that feeling and just thought that I should just go full on in english since that was one of the few things that i was really good at. Reminder, I can still understand the language just fine but talking to others with the languages was made difficult, to the point that my family joked that I didn't look vietnamese and more korean or japanese. I laughed at the joke but overtime it started to become real with even other vietnamese people questioning about my heratige and race. Again, I didn't think much of it. But fast foward to now. I am currently 18 years old and going to be 19 this year. My parent think that i should get a driver's licence incase i ever got a car and so my dad found a timeframe in which i could get a lincence test. Today is that day (17th of march 2026). After breakfast, me and my dad went to the place where i will be getting my test. I did a couple of the test until i reach for the one here i must answer a coulple of questions about me and my health. The instructor there was questioning me about my health but , of course, i could barely follow along to even answer them. She got a bit frustraitd and ask if i could talk to a relative of mine and so i said my dad. He walks and and i step out to let them talk. As my father is explaining my situation, i didn't know exactly what the instructor said but i can understand enought that she might have called me "unfit for driving", thinking that i might not been entirely mentaly ok. As my dad was trying to defend me, i was called to step back in and answer the questions again. I did somewhat better but not enough since she called my dad back in and i had to step out. She was convinced that i might have been not mentaly well (P.S: This could all be wrong, again, my translations are not the best so please keep that in mind) and told my father that I would have to try again another time. At the drive back home, my dad absolutly repremanded me. Shouting at me clearly frustraited about how that all went. Continuesly asking me "HOW CAN'T YOU ANSWER A FEW SIMPLE QUESTIONS?" and "YOU NEED TO SPEAK UP FOR THEM TO HEAR YOU!" If any of you are questioning me on what the questions were, some of them were: My parents names (Answered), My medical history (Not quite answered) and my current living location (Not answered). Most of which i couldn't answer because my mind was translating them and was confussed as to how to answer each question. I am now back in my room alone and now ashamed and embarrassed of myself. If you were exppecting for me to ask for any of your help, i wasn't. This post is just for me to vent out my shame onto the world. If you would like to help me, go ahead. Just note that it might not help much on myself. And I would also like to thank you of you just read everything that i just wrote. I'm glad that you found the title interesting enough for you to take your time from your own busy lives and read this. Goodbye