Struggling as a new mum, is this normal?
I need to get this off my chest as I feel like I'm going bonkers. I'm a FTM to a now 12-week old baby boy. Been with his dad for 15+ years, uni sweethearts. Baby was IVF, first time success. Pregnancy was fine, apart from hypertension. C-section at week 38+1. We had a rough start with severe tongue tie, strong baby blues for me, drop in weight, triple feeding hell, etc. We don't have much help.
He's beautiful, smart, interesting. But I just feel constantly sad, depressed and impatient with him. He fights day naps, needs to be in carrier all the time, gets overstimulated fast, spits up a lot. He's EBF which I'm so proud of, that we managed to achieve that, but I just don't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am mourning my old self, I miss time with my husband, I miss my identity pre-matrescence.
Everyone tells me "it's a stage, it gets better"...or "enjoy this stage, they grow so fast" but I am just sad. I feel like I chose this, I mean damn, I even paid for it, but I'm so certain I'm One and done. It's tough in a way no one or nothing could have prepared me for.
How can I stay positive? What can I do to change my mentality?
Is everyone suffering in silence and just puts on a brave face or am I suffering more than normal?