Nothing more
I’m writing this from a place that hurts to stay,
Where words feel sharp but silence cuts away.
I’m carrying what I never meant to hold,
Still standing here while everything feels cold.
I took the hit because I chose to care,
Straight to the gut then lower, life’s not fair.
I doubled down when I should’ve stepped aside,
Believed in us when doubt was justified.
I need the truth, not something half-assembled,
Don’t make me prove a love that never trembled.
I gave you all of me without a test,
Just tell me now, was I your worst or best?
Was I your home or just a place to land?
Did we have roots or only shifting sand?
We laughed, we built, we shared our daily days
Tell me those moments weren’t just a phase.
Distance shakes me deeper than I show,
My nervous system screams what you don’t know.
When space appears, my body feels the loss,
Like love is gone and I’m the only cost.
I’m angry, yes but missing you the same,
Two truths that burn inside this one flame.
I want what’s gone, I want what can’t be had,
Now I sit here sorting good from bad.
When I fall in love, I lose my sense,
The world grows quiet, my focus turns immense..
I focus in so fully I forget
Then I'm all in my final bet.
I give too much, then they decide to leave,
I stay behind to clean what they relieve.
Still, I’m changing parts that failed me then,
Cutting loose what no longer serves what's been.
Take all of me or let me truly go,
But don’t leave me in a burning slow.
I’m tired of waiting at the in-between,
Of wondering what all your silence really does mean.
I’ve been patient longer than my bones,
Ignored, unseen, unheard, alone.
Now even truth feels slippery and thin,
I question what’s outside and what’s within.
There’s rage in me but fear sits underneath,
And love that never found its relief.
I wanted more because I knew I could,
I just believed you’d meet me where I stood.
My chest is tight, my stomach’s tied in knots,
A lesson learned in places that I fought.
I knew the pattern, still I walked inside,
Fell again with nowhere left to hide.
You took me places I had never been,
Then let me drop and fail back into unseen
It hurts but maybe this was meant to just be,
If I could stay consistent, calm, and me.
So hear this now, no masks, no borrowed tone:
I wasn’t fake in anything I’d shown.
I was real, I stayed, I didn’t flee
I loved you hard, honestly, completely.
If that’s not enough, let it finally end,
But don’t erase the truth we couldn’t bend.
I’ll carry forward, wiser than before,
But know this i was real. Nothing less. Nothing more.
—