How can I bring myself to get my dog to the vet and say goodbye?
I just found out yesterday that my dog of 13 years has a huge tumor on his liver, the tests are very bad, his urine, poop and vomit all have blood and everything has escalated so quickly in the last 24 hours. I swear he didn't seem to be this bad a few weeks ago. The vet said he can live 2 weeks to 1 month maximum and told us to think about eutanasia. So we booked an appointment to do this today and I don't know how to do this. I spent the whole day yesterday and today with him and tonight I will have to take him there. How can I just get him out of his bed, get him in the car and drive him to his death? I feel like I'm taking away his life on purpose and I feel very guilty and very bad. At the same time I don't want to risk having him in pain or getting worse and worse, I want the best for him. It's like a conflict in me and I feel helpless, I feel like everything changes so quickly, like a few weeks ago he seemed fine and now I will take his life in just 48 hours? I thought about keeping him for a few more days/weeks but my mom is already in a very bad mental state and I don't know if I can handle him going worse and worse and eventually having to euthanize him anyway.
Please if you have any advice for me from your experiences or anything like that please help me because I feel like I'm losing my mind.