Should i stay or should i go?
I've been training MMA for just under a year. However, i trained in BJJ and (Muay Thai as a hobby) for some years before that. This MMA gym im currently at the coaches seem to be somewhat interested in me and have overall been somewhat nice to me to the point where they are interested in me fighting and making my ameteur MMA debut. However i dont know if this gym is for me:
Snakey behaviour, i know snakey behaviour is common in life however i see it a good amount in this gym. The better fighters in the gym talking bad about previous/current members and being nice to their face
Hard sparring, i like hard sparring to a degree i think its necessary if you want to fight however in this gym ive seen 2 of the best members of the gym lose their cool in sparring and absolutely batter others without saying that they are going hard and i have even seen them do it too a few beginniners. This is somewhat common to the point where the coaches know that its gonna happen and have to constantly tell them to relax.
3.I struggle to fit in, i always have struggled school, work,other martial art gyms but eventually, I've managed to fit in somewhat but at this gym i just can't seem to do it it seems like alot of the better members are kind of like in their own friend group with the coaches too which is understandable but most of them just seem to not care unless you have some sort of value to the team like a good sparring partner, competing for the gym,etc. I have met a couple pretty nice people but they dont come to the gym enough for me to see them
Its a solid gym! I dont want to make the gym seem like absolute shit they have some really good fighters, and i can definitely still learn a lot at this gym however i just dont think its a fit for me.
I Feel like im being rushed to make my ameteur mma debut, Ive heard alot of people feel this way but genuinely against the actual fighters in the gym I dont really 'win' rounds often or prove to myself at all that im ready to perform infront of a crowd in a sport such as MMA.
I want to compete in Ameteur MMA eventually (just turned 21) however there are no other mma gyms near me and to be honest this is probably the best gym in terms of MMA success. If i moved gyms i was thinking about competing more in bjj and maybe having some boxing/thai boxing fights in the mean time.
Main question
Im moving away in a year and a half should i stay with this gym or just go my own way from the gym and compete in seperate martial arts
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I have met some good people im not saying i dont get along with everyone however they seem to go or they simply just dont come in to train enough for me to see them.
Sorry im not a writer.