Being stuck in a niche that I never wanted to be in
Trigger warning as this mentions topics of sex. I'm an associate and maintaining a stable caseload has never happened yet so I'm in no place to be picky with clients. I know we still need to show up for clients regardless of what concern brought them in.
I really struggle with clients when talking about sex to the point where pretty much 90% of my clients are talking about their sex-lives. Nothing against sex in particular, I'm aware it's a normal human thing and can impact an individual's mental health so I'm required to allow these conversations. The struggle might come from a sheltered upbringing or trauma or whatever, but it's not something I've been able to solve immediately. Talking about other people's sex lives has been causing me panic attacks & nightmares in my outside life, and I've been using my lunch breaks to go throw up sometimes. I've asked my supervisor for support, and she excitedly said I had finally found my niche and that I could later become a sex therapist because of this.
I really don't want this and know I'm not allowed to drop or transfer any of these clients. I don't know how to build up a tolerance to hearing about these topics.