I've never had a dream like this. I can't seem to get it out of my head now. Please help me make sense of it.
I don't usually have vivid dreams, or dream often. And when I do dream, I don't really remember them by the end of the day. But this one... This was different.. it happened a week and a half ago, and it's still lingering in my mind.
I remember being on a dock by a river, don't recall who I was with or what we were doing. We had sharpies for some reason, and one went into the water. I said I'll go in and get it, since I'm a good swimmer. That's when the dream got interesting..
The next thing I know, I feel... transparent. Not my physical body, but the physical feeling of my body was gone, weightless, if that makes sense. I genuinely remember that feeling. Then in the dream I said to myself "wait.. did I die?" And then I look up to see (stereotypically) a small bright light, that starts shining brighter and getting bigger. It has rays coming off of it like the sun. At one point as it was getting bigger there was a black ring around the center of the light source, and the light kept shining out around it. I then felt sad, thinking about my partner and my kids, how I wanted to tell them I love them one last time, how I won't see them again, the pain they'll go through by losing me. I felt it to my core, so much so I'm tearing up writing this now. Then the dream transitioned, I was suddenly walking into a kitchen. I didn't recognize it, but it gave old/grandparent vibes. There was a gentleman there who welcomed me. Not surprised to see me type of welcome, but in a wholesome, casual welcome home way. I couldn't make out who it was in the dream, but I remember suddenly feeling so happy and content, joyous. All the sadness and pain from before washed away.
I really felt those emotions throughout the dream deep in my soul. I woke up remembering exactly how it felt. And I can't get it out of my head, I think about it often. The visual of the light shining bright with that black ring around the center of it pops into my head randomly during the day. I've never had such an emotionally vivid dream before, I've never had a dream stick to me the way this has.
Please, give me all your thoughts and opinions. And thank you for taking the time to read all of this.