u/coffin-intern

I was not always cruel.

That’s a lie I told myself again and again—like a lullaby with no tune.

I sang it while I brushed my teeth.

I sang it when I played with toys that weren’t mine.

I sang it when I listened to my mother sobbing through the wall.

I sang it while my father screamed himself hoarse into the empty woods. But cruelty is like sap. It sticks to your skin. It stains everything it touches. A slow, sticky reminder of the things you wish you’d never done.

This isn’t just the story of how I lost my brother.

This is the story of how I betrayed him.

I was ten. He was only seven.He was afraid of the dark, afraid of thunder, of dolls with glassy eyes and insects that flew. He was afraid of everything—and I hated him for it. I hated how easily he cried, how he clung to me with trembling hands and a voice like a kicked puppy.

He ruined every game I made up. So one day, I did something unforgivable.

We lived near a stretch of black pine forest, where no birds sang. The older children used to whisper that deep in those woods was an old carousel— a crooked, creaking thing made of children’s bones and flaking paint, still spinning to a haunting tune. They said that if you found it, and you were brave enough to ride, you could make a wish. But there were rules. You had to sit upon one of the animals and keep your eyes shut tight—no matter what you heard. If you opened them before the ride was over… Well. No one agreed on exactly what happened then. But none of the endings were good.

One day, I told my brother about it. I told him there was a cockerel carved of oak. And if he sat on it—really sat, and opened his eyes before the ride ended—he’d never be scared again. He asked if it was safe. I told him yes. I lied.

We wandered deep into the woods until the trees began to whisper and the air turned cold.

Then we heard it: a soft, tinkling melody, like the metal teeth of a music box being plucked. In a clearing, we found it—the carousel.

A low fog curled hungrily around our ankles as I pushed my brother forward. The carousel was huge and slanted, its wooden boards bowed with rot. Faded pinks and blues stained the surface like old bruises. Rusting poles stabbed out of the floor, skewering the bodies of the ride’s animals. Twisted horses, swans with limp, broken necks, bears whose faces looked disturbingly human. As I dragged my brother toward it, the carousel slowed… and stopped. The forest fell completely still. No birds. No wind. Not even the scuttle of beetles beneath the leaves. Like the whole world was holding its breath.

My brother turned to me, his body shaking.

“I don’t like it here,” he whimpered. “I don’t want to ride.”

I looked down at him with disgust.

“You’re such a baby,” I snapped. “Everyone at school’s been on the carousel. If you don’t do it, I’ll tell everyone you cried like a little kid. No one will want to play with you ever again.”

He sniffled. Wiped a tear from his cheek. I watched him climb the platform like someone walking to their own hanging. He approached the cockerel. It was worse than I imagined.

Its beak was open in a frozen scream, its eyes wet and too human. Its twisted legs looked like something reptilian—scaled, stitched, wrong. The skin seemed made from overlapping scraps of leather, tanned and pulled taut. Talons curled cruelly from each foot. The feathers, once bright, were faded and chipped, revealing pink flesh beneath the paint.

He took a breath and climbed onto it.

I watched him shudder as his bare hands touched the thing’s back. Then the music started again. Quiet at first, but growing louder. So loud it crawled beneath your skin, made your teeth ache. And then the ride began to turn.

My brother passed me, white-knuckled on the pole, his eyes squeezed shut. The carousel spun faster, faster—until the creatures seemed to run, to lurch in unnatural motion. Between their bodies, I caught glimpses of the center: rusted cogs, gnashing bone, and what looked like gristle and teeth turning like machinery.

The music warped, dragging itself toward an ending.

I leaned in, and screamed over the sound:

“OPEN YOUR EYES!”

It was the last thing I should have said.

I will never stop regretting it.

He opened them.His scream tore through the clearing—high and raw and endless. His eyes were too wide. Too white.

Then the cockerel beneath him moved. Its great talons ripped backward, slashing into my brother. Flesh tore.Bone cracked. He fell apart like a doll pulled apart by angry hands. From the heart of the carousel came limbs—long, black, spindly. They unfolded like a spider waking from a nap, stretching thin legs from the cogs and gore. They cradled what was left of him gently, like he was clay, and began to mold. They reshaped him. Stretched his skin, snapped his bones into new shapes.

A creature was forming—part animal, part boy, all wrong.

The spider-limbs pulled animal parts from piles I hadn’t noticed—hooves, beaks, antlers, tusks—

and stabbed them into the thing they were making of my brother. A final pike was driven down through its spine, fixing it to the carousel. And then the music stopped. The limbs slithered back into the dark center of the ride. I couldn’t move. My legs didn’t work right. I stumbled home like a sleepwalker.

When I got there, my parents were waiting. They asked where he was. I told them he’d wandered off in the woods. That I tried to find him. That I’d called and called but he never came back.

People searched for days. They called his name until their voices gave out. But I knew. I always knew. They’d never find him.

In the first few days, I revelled in the freedom I had claimed.

No more whines about what games I played or what we watched on TV.

No more complaints about the lights being off, or screams whenever thunderstorms cracked the sky.

But as the weeks dragged on, the empty space my brother left behind grew—and so did the gnawing pain of guilt.

The house seemed bigger somehow, like we were three strangers rattling around its hollow rooms, each of us trying to avoid the others.

The sobs of my mother never quieted, and my father became a husk of the man he once was.

Each morning, he rose without a word and went straight into the woods, combing the trees for his lost child.

After a month, he could barely leave his armchair.

He sat there—silent, still—a statue in the living room, staring at nothing.

The silence in the house was deafening.

But not deafening enough to drown out the sound that forever played in my head—

that cold, tinkling carousel tune.

I heard it every day.

The delicate chime of metal tines plucking out a melody made for children,

sweet and hollow and wrong.

One night, as I lay in bed staring at the empty mattress across the room—

my brother’s bed—I made my decision.

I would go back into the woods and get him.

No matter what it cost.

The next morning, the sky hung low with bulging thunderclouds.

I pulled on my raincoat and wellies, stepped out the front door—

and no one called after me.

Without my brother, it was like I had vanished too.

A ghost rattling through a sad, broken home.

In the forest, I trudged through mud and bramble, over puddles and broken twigs.

The sound came again.

But this time, it wasn’t just in my head.

It was out there, in the woods—real, growing louder as I pressed deeper between the trees.

The tune floated to me like a scent.

Metallic and familiar.

Calling.

Then I saw it.

The clearing.

The carousel.

It stood bloated and rotting in the mist, patient and waiting—

like it had always known I would come back.

Its creatures turned in their grotesque parade, their shapes warped and inhuman as the ride spun and groaned.

The air stank of mildew and old blood.

The music slowed.

The carousel shuddered.

It began to stop.

But I already knew which one would be waiting for me.

Even before the ride came to a halt, I knew.

The creature standing before me—twisted, terrible—

was the thing the black spider-limbs had made from my brother.

It was meant to be a rabbit.

But whatever remade him had never truly seen one, only imagined it through a veil of madness.

The creature before me stood too tall, its back legs grotesquely long and bent in on themselves, like cracked elbows trying to kneel. Its fur was thin and patchy, revealing stretches of raw, stitched skin, grey and puckered like old meat. The body trembled as if still afraid, even now.

Its head was a mockery—an oversized rabbit skull fused with remnants of my brother’s face. His eyes were still there, too human, too knowing, persecuting, set beneath a heavy brow of cracked porcelain, like a broken doll's mask stretched into a snout. One long ear was torn, hanging by a sliver of tendon, while the other twitched with mechanical jerks, as if remembering how to be real.

His arms had been shortened, contorted to resemble paws, ending in splintered wood claws rather than fingers. From his chest jutted a twisted pole, rusty and stained, skewering him like meat on a spit, pinning him eternally to the carousel.

Worst of all was his mouth, opened too wide, too permanently. A silent scream. Not a sound escaped him, but I could see his throat tremble with each slow rotation, like he was still trying to beg. Still trying to come home.

I gulped down the bile rising in my throat and stepped toward the ghastly creature. My limbs shook as I reached for the rusted pole jutting from its chest and hoisted myself onto the broken hare’s back.

The fur was coarse in places, matted in others, and a slick sheen of some unknown fluid coated the bald, welted scraps of skin. I tried to steady my breathing as I settled into place. The creature shuddered beneath me, but the carousel did not move.

I waited. Nothing.

Fighting the rising nausea, I inched further forward, wondering if I wasn’t sitting right. Still, the ride remained still, silent as a grave.

The quiet gnawed at my thoughts. Panic began to curl its fingers around my throat. I shouted into the dead woods, my voice cracking.

“Take me! Give me my brother back and I’ll ride instead of him!”

Only silence answered, vast and swallowing. My breath came in shallow gasps.

“Please,” I whispered. “I’m sorry. Please—I want my brother back. He doesn’t deserve to be here. It was me. It should’ve been me. I should have ridden the rooster.”

Then, a voice came—not spoken, not human. It was the groan of ancient gears, the whisper of rusted cogs grinding bone. It seeped from the core of the carousel itself.

“Tainted. Unclean. Impure.”

That was all it said.

No arms emerged. No spindly fingers reached to claim me. I sat frozen on the trembling back of my brother’s ruined form, shivering from the inside out.

Then the lights began to dim.

One by one, the dim bulbs around the carousel winked out until I was swallowed by blackness. The air grew cold and still. The music never started again.

And I knew, with the kind of knowing that lives in your bones, that I had been judged.

I was too stained to ride.

My soul too spoiled to offer.

My brother would spin forever beneath the branches of that cursed wood, one grotesque turn after another, a prisoner of my cruelty. And I—

I would go on living, with the hollow of him carved deep inside me. A yawning emptiness where love and laughter once lived.

He would never come home.

And I would never truly leave that carousel.

The Old Singing Mermaid

The Old Singing Mermaid was exactly what you'd expect. A ramshackle stone pub with low, dark wooden beams that still clung to the scent of salt and old smoke—stuff that had seeped into the grain and would never come out. Taxidermied fish stared down from the walls, and rotting knots of thick rope hung in the corners like spiderwebs for sailors.

A log fire crackled in the smoke-stained hearth, its orange glow flickering across the blackened bricks. Outside, a lighthouse blinked through the howling gale like a weary eye.

I’d only popped in that evening to escape the rain, hoping for a quiet pint before braving the storm home. That’s when I saw him.

He was near the fire, tucked into the shadows of the far corner of the pub—a bent old man who looked like he'd grown out of the floorboards. Deep grooves lined his cragged face, like the side of an eroded cliff. The firelight danced across him, revealing the wiry tangles of grey hair that fell damp over his collar.

His eyes were dark and sunken, the kind that belonged to men haunted by memories best left sunken. He looked exactly how you'd picture an old sea captain from stories—grizzled, worn, and stitched together by storms and sea shanties. And, as it turned out, he was.

I ordered a pint and took a seat near the fire, hoping to dry off. As I stretched out my hands toward the warmth, I looked up and met his gaze.

A crooked, toothless smile crept across his face like a tide coming in slow. Then he spoke.

“Tryin’ to dry the old bones, are you, sonny?”

His voice was hoarse, like the rasp of parchment or an old sail cracking in the wind. He leaned in a little closer, and I caught the smell of the sea on him—saltwater, old brine, and something else. Something deeper.

“This storm ain’t nothing,” he said, squinting out at the window. “It’ll pass in an hour or two and be forgotten…”

He paused, eyes flickering with something distant. Then he turned back to me, voice lower.

“But there are storms, lad… storms that come from below. And those? Well. They don't ever leave you.”

He seemed to drift for a moment, like a boat loosed from its mooring—his eyes went glassy and distant, caught in some sudden vivid memory. Then, just as quickly, he blinked hard, tugged a long swig from his glass tankard, and returned to the room.

The scarred back of his hand wiped the foam from his tangled, bushy beard with a practiced swipe, like he’d done it ten thousand times before.

A thick silence settled between us, not uncomfortable, exactly—more like the hanging smoke from the fire. Heavy. Expectant. It felt pregnant, like there was more he’d say, if the right kind of listener asked the right kind of question.

I did.

Something about this barnacled old sea dog stirred my curiosity. Maybe it was his voice—the deep, groaning creak of it—or maybe it was the way he made me feel ten years old again, sitting cross-legged at my grandfather’s feet, listening to tall tales of krakens and ghost ships.

“Well,” I said, carefully, “I imagine you’ve seen a few storms.”

A sly twinkle lit up his eyes then—quick and cunning. The kind of look a fisherman gives when he feels the first tug on the line.

“Aye, I have, lad,” he said, voice low and full of gravitas. “More’n I can rightly count these days. I’ve been captain for over fifty years now…” He leaned in slightly, letting the sentence hang just long enough before adding:

“And I’ve seen things that’d curl your bloody hair.”

He let out a low, mischievous chuckle, then flashed a gummy smile in the direction of my shiny, bald head.

He downed the last of his pint in a single practiced tilt, then grinned up at me. The few teeth he had left caught the firelight—silver, gleaming faintly from between his crinkled lips like old coins dredged from the deep.

“Buy an old man another drink,” he rasped, “and I’ll tell you a tale you’ll never forget.”

I couldn’t help but smile. The warmth of the fire, the patter of rain against the pub windows, and the sheer strangeness of him all wrapped around me like a net. I nodded.

Minutes later, I returned to the table with two full tankards. He took his with both hands, as if it were heavier than it looked, and drank deep.

Then he leaned in close. His breath smelled of salt and old beer, his voice dropped low, and his eyes—those dark, sea-deep eyes—fixed on mine like anchors.

And he began.

“She was called The Maiden of the Tides,” he began, his voice dipping low, “but by the end of that voyage… maybe The Widowmaker would’ve been more fitting.”

He paused, took another drink, and let the fire crackle between us before continuing.

“She was a beauty. Rusted in places, sure, and a bit beat up around the rails—but she was mine. We’d sailed together near twenty years. That old girl could ride out any storm and bring us home smiling.”

His eyes glazed for a moment, and when he spoke again, it was like he was already halfway back there.

“This would’ve been, what... fifteen years ago now? I’ll never forget the feeling before we set out. Me and the lads were full of it—laughin’, drinkin’, excited to get out there and haul in a proper catch. Tuna and herring, we’d heard. Schools so thick you could walk across their backs. Up past our usual spot, just a little further out.”

His smile twisted, bitter at the edges—like a memory that had gone sour in the bottle.

“That was the last time any of us laughed like that.”

His eyes drifted to the window as he spoke, like he half-expected to see his old crewmates standing out there in the rain, waiting for him, sea-soaked and smiling.

“Let’s see… there was Gary, my first mate. Big fella—arms like anchor chains and a habit of cheating at poker, though he always swore blind he didn’t. Then young Jimmy Barnes—fresh-faced, wiry, quick on his feet. Good lad. Quick to laugh, too.”

He let out a breath, something between a chuckle and a sigh.

“Paul Tubb—always laughing himself, always up to something. Loved a prank, that one. Spent more time hiding from the cook than fishing, I swear. And Trevor Ives—tattoos up and down his arms, a girl in every port. Ladies’ man, if you catch my drift. Always smelled like cologne and mischief.”

A faint smile tugged at the corners of his mouth, but it didn’t last.

“There were a few others, too. Good men. Young men…”

His voice softened. The weight of memory pressed down on him, and he stared into his pint for a long moment before lifting it and taking another deep gulp.

“Anyways,” he said, swirling the foam in his tankard, “as we drew further out, the weather was as good as you could ever want it. Clear skies, calm waves, gulls screamin’ their bloody heads off over whatever they’d found further out.”

He gave a small nod, like it was a memory he could still see.

“If you’re fishing, that’s what you want—follow the birds, and you’ll find your fish.”

He let out a soft chuckle.

“First few days sailing, everything went right. Fine weather, fine waves, even a fine mood. I don’t think I remember a single tussle with the lads on that trip.”

He leaned in then, a knowing smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth.

“Now listen—get a small boat full o’ swinging dicks, a bit of booze, and not much to do, and you’re bound to get a few scraps. Silly fights over cards or music or whose turn it is on deck. Always happens.”

He shook his head, slowly.

“But those few days... they were as nice as you could wish.”

“But you know,” he said, voice low, “nice don’t ever really last, does it?”

He glanced at the fire, the dancing light casting strange shapes in his sunken eyes.

“And it sure as salt didn’t that trip.”

He took a long sip from his tankard, then set it down with a soft thud.

“When we started nearing the coordinates—place we’d been told the fish were practically jumpin’ out the sea onto the deck—the fog started rollin’ in.”

He paused, squinting like he could still see it curling over the rails.

“Not like a normal sea fret. Not that kind you see comin’ from the horizon, rollin’ in soft like a blanket off the moors. No. This fog… it rose up—straight out the sea herself. Like she was breathing it, and it swallowed us whole.”

“One minute, we were baskin’ in the sun. Next minute, you couldn’t see the hand in front of your face.”

He rubbed his fingers together slowly, like testing the air for damp.

“We had to drift through it, slow-like. Relyin’ on sonar to make sure we didn’t get turned around or bash into somethin’. And it was in that fog… that the sounds started.”

His voice dropped again, barely more than a murmur.

“Soft, at first. Like a whisper caught on the wind. But it was… beautiful. Bloody beautiful. So beautiful it made your chest ache. Like the kind of singin’ that makes you remember the girl you left behind… or the first time your heart broke.”

He tapped his temple.

“It got into your head, that song. You couldn’t think straight when you heard it. Couldn’t do anything at all.”

I hadn't noticed but as the old sea captain's voice had hushed I'd leaned in closer, smelling his breath of beer and old tobacco, completely spellbound by this tale.

At first,” he said, his fingers tightening around his tankard, “only a few of the lads heard it. Got these dumb, dreamy looks on their faces—like they were lost inside their own heads. Smilin’ at nothin’, eyes glassy, swayin’ on their feet like they were slow-dancin’ with ghosts.”

He shook his head, slow and bitter.

“More and more of the boys started hearin’ it the further out we got. One by one, they slipped under, like the song was pickin’ ’em off.”

He glanced at the window again, as if expecting the fog to be there still, clawing at the glass.

“The mist started to thin then—just a little—as we approached the coordinates. You’d think that’d be a good sign, seein’ the sky again. But oh, lad… that sound…”

He paused, swallowed hard, and his voice dropped like a net into deep water.

“That sweet, sweet sound got louder. Heavier. Like it had a weight of its own. Like it was pressin’ down on us. Drownin’ us in it.”

He tapped the side of his head with a calloused finger.

“Not water, this time. It was the music that filled your lungs.”

I couldn’t help myself—I interrupted his train of thought.

“But why didn’t you turn back?” I asked. “I mean… if things started getting weird, or whatever?”

He barked a short, bitter laugh, then looked straight at me. His eyes were sharp now—cold and hard, like the sea at night.

“Turn back? Aye… I wish we had. But like I told you, lad—that sound, that accursed song—it made thinking feel like wading through mud. Not the soft kind either. The thick, black stuff that sucks the boots off your feet and pulls you down slow.”

He tapped the side of his head again, slower this time.

“You could hardly remember what you were doin’, let alone think of turning the boat around.”

He went quiet for a moment, staring into the fire. When he spoke again, his voice had dropped into something colder.

“Next thing we hear… is a splash.”

He held up a crooked finger.

“One splash. Heavy. Sudden. Like someone dropped a full barrel overboard. It cut right through the music—like a stone through glass.”

He swallowed.

“We all stood there—staring, still muddled, still not quite ourselves. Then, like someone snapped their fingers, we all woke up at once. Runnin’ round the deck like headless chickens, shoutin’ and searchin’—tryin’ to see who’d gone over.”

His jaw clenched, and the firelight caught in the deep lines of his face.

“Later we figured out it was O’Brien. New lad. Quiet. Always polite. Barely been with us a month.”

He looked at me then, real slow.

“The water was clear, lad. Dead calm. We looked over every side. No splashin’. No bobbin’ head or shoutin’ for help. Not even a ripple.”

He leaned closer. I could smell the stale beer and salt again.

“Just gone. One splash… and that was it.”

The silence prowled between us like a living thing, coiled and tense, waiting to pounce on whoever dared to speak first. The old captain’s eyes had gone misty, like old tears were building behind them, too proud—or too broken—to fall. He sniffed hard, rough and wet, then wiped at his nose with the back of a scarred hand before lifting his head to meet my eyes.

There was something hollow about him now. His skin looked almost sallow in the firelight, stretched tight over sharp cheekbones. A man made of driftwood and guilt. His gaze felt distant—as if he wasn’t looking at me, but through me… to a place far out on the water.

“We searched for that boy a good hour,” he rasped. “Called his name, combed every inch of the deck, looked over the rails again and again. But there was no sign. No jacket. No sound. No splash left to echo.”

He paused, then his voice dropped—barely above a whisper.

“No one… no one on board could remember where he’d been standin’. Or who’d seen him last. It’s like the sea didn’t just take his body.”

His eyes met mine again, and for a moment, he looked very, very old.

“It took the memory of him too.”

“Now normally, lad,” the old man muttered, voice low and worn, “if someone goes down to join Davy Jones’s locker, we’d call the coast guard. Turn the boat around, head for shore, maybe get a rescue team out there if we were lucky.”

He shook his head slow.

“But before that thought could even finish crawlin’ its way through our fogged-up brains… that bloody song started up again. Only this time, it was different. Stronger. Like it’d had a sip of blood and liked the taste. Called us further out. Called us onward.”

He leaned forward now, hands shaking slightly as he licked at cracked lips and rubbed absently at the blistered, salt-scarred palms of his hands.

“So we went. Like fools. Drove further out, deeper into that dead still water. No gulls crying overhead. No waves lappin’ the hull. Just the creak of the boat and that… song. It felt like we were the last men left in the world.”

He paused, just for a heartbeat, and the weight of that silence pressed in so heavy I felt it in my chest. Then:

“Next thing we heard was a yell. A proper scream, raw and human and real—cut through the air like a flare through black sky. Harsh and jagged against the lull of that cursed melody.”

He looked up at me, his eyes glistening, fever-bright.

“When I stumbled out onto the deck, I saw them. A knot of the lads—five, maybe six of ‘em—leaning so far over the rails I thought they were goners. Arms stretched out. Mouths slack. Like they were reaching for something.”

He went quiet again.

And every pause in his story clawed at me, raw and unbearable. I had to grit my teeth just to stop myself from shouting at him to carry on. My fingers trembled slightly around my pint. My breath had gone shallow.

It wasn’t just interest anymore. It was need. I needed to hear what came next—like if I didn’t, something terrible would happen.

Something worse than what I was already hearing.

“I stumbled over to them like a man drunk on bad whiskey, shoving through the fog and yanking the lads back one by one by the scruff of their necks. They resisted me, slack-limbed and stupid-eyed, like kids dragged out of a dream.

“What the bloody hell do you think you’re doing?” I barked.

It was young Jimmy Barnes who answered first. His words spilled out slow and slurred, like he was half a breath away from passing out. That dumb, dopey grin was plastered across his face—the kind you only ever see on a man in love for the first time.

“There’s women in the water,” he said, eyes glassy and far-off. “So beautiful… the most beautiful I’ve ever seen. Pale and—naked, all of them. Just... swimmin’ under the boat. Singin’ to us.”

I thought the poor boy had gone mad. But the others around him—Paul, Trevor, even big Gary—all nodded along, dreamy and dazed, like he was speakin’ gospel.

I didn’t believe a word of it. Not at first.

But then I looked. Leaned over the side of the rail, heart pounding, and peered down into the water.

And what I saw... well, it weren’t no women.

Below the surface, lit by some strange, flickering light, were fish. Great silver things, long and slick, writhing and knotting around each other like guts in a butcher’s bucket. There must have been hundreds of them—maybe thousands—twisting and undulating like the intestines of some sleeping god, their scales glowing from within like candlelight behind skin.

The sight made my stomach churn. But the others? The others just stared. Smiling.

Like they’d never seen anything more beautiful.

I growled at the boys, loud as I could.

“Lower the nets! There’s fish to be had. Snap out of it, you bunch of idiots!”

They moved slow—dreamy and slack-jawed—their minds clearly still floating somewhere beneath the waves. Still, they got to it. Clumsy hands worked the lines as the net slithered down behind the stern like some long, hungry tail.

I turned to head back to the wheelhouse, hoping to regain some control over the ship and the lot of them.

Then I heard it—a scuffle, then full-on roaring chaos. I spun on my heel just in time to see Gary with Paul in a headlock, pounding seven shades of shit out of him. Gary’s fists came down like hammers, wild and brutal, until Paul—bloody but game—managed to crack him square in the nose.

Blood flew. Shouts rang out. The rest of the lads scrambled to drag the two apart.

“What the hell do you think you're playing at!?” I bellowed. “We’re working! You need to calm yourselves down and do your fucking jobs!”

The two men kept straining against the ones holding them back, eyes red and wild, breath heaving.

Gary snarled, bloody froth bubbling from his split lip.

“She smiled at me, not you, you fat fuck!” he screamed. “She beckoned to me, you twat. I’m the one she wants! Didn’t you hear it in her song? She was singing to me! She’s mine!”

The others fell quiet. Even the sea seemed to still.

And I’ll tell you, lad, that was the moment I realized we weren’t just chasing fish anymore, something was chasing us.”

The whole town came to my sister’s funeral.

Everyone was drowning in black—veils, dresses, suits. Faces downcast as we watched the small wooden coffin lowered into the earth, like a mouth of soil yawning wide to swallow her whole.

There wasn’t much left of her by the end. Most of her hair had fallen out, and her limbs were skeletal, brittle. Every breath was a death rattle, wet and shallow. I know it’s selfish to say, but some days, I couldn’t bear to look at her. Watching her face—my face, our face—hollow into something that didn’t look human anymore. We were twins. Looking at her was like staring into a mirror that showed me my own slow decay.

The cancer was merciless. It robbed her of everything: her laughter, her strength, the joy we both held like a secret between us. And then, one morning, she was gone.

No scream, no gasp.

The house woke up, but she didn’t.

My father stood by the grave, shrunken and sagging. He used to be a big man, all brawn and muscle from the fields, but that day it was like the strength had fallen out of him and he hadn’t bothered to pick it back up. My mother was worse. She collapsed to the ground, clawing at the grass like she meant to drag herself down into the hole after her. She wailed like a wounded animal, thick, shuddering sobs pouring out of her like a dam finally burst.

I heard the worried whispers of our neighbors, saw the way the gravediggers glanced nervously at one another and at the trees beyond—but I said nothing.

I just sat there, silent. Feeling the space where my sister used to be.The hollow inside me where she used to fit.

I didn’t cry. I just felt empty.

By the end of the day, I was exhausted. I didn’t want to feel anything anymore—not the well-meaning hands patting my hair, not the hugs filled with empty words that meant nothing.

My father had to carry my mother home. She lay limp in his arms, sobbing like a child who’d fallen from a swing. He didn’t speak, but I saw the tears slipping down his cheeks as we walked.I went straight to my room when we got back. None of us knew how to comfort each other. We didn’t even try. We were three strangers echoing around a mausoleum my sister had built.

In our bedroom—my bedroom now—her bed still sat across from mine.

The machines were still there, quiet now.

Wires limp against the covers like broken strings.

Bottles of pills still stacked on the bedside table like unread books.I turned my back on it all, curled into myself on my bed, and prayed for sleep.

A few days passed, and my parents told me I didn’t have to go back to school until I was ready. But whether I was ready or not didn’t matter much—because I couldn’t stay in that house a moment longer. It felt like we’d brought the graveyard home with us after the funeral. My parents stood like tombstones in every room, silent and unmoving, carved into their grief. The air was thick and stale, heavy with the smell of wilting flowers and uneaten casseroles from neighbors we didn’t have the heart to thank, let alone eat.

The next morning, I put on my uniform and slipped out the door. My mother didn’t notice. My father offered a half-hearted grunt of farewell, barely turning from his place at the kitchen table. I think it hurts them to look at me—like seeing a ghost that refuses to stay buried. I wear my sister’s face, her hands, her voice. I am the reminder they can't silence. The child they fed to the ground, still walking.

I took my usual route toward school, but stopped short at the lane that skirted the field. The wind was blowing in from across it, cold and insistent, and the tall grass leaned unnaturally toward town. The earth there lay raw and dark, thick veins of tilled soil stretching across the ground like something freshly opened. No farmer ever worked that land.

For a moment, I stood watching the edge of the trees. Something caught the light—faint glints, high and shifting, like strands of spider silk tangled in the branches.I clutched my bag tighter and took the long way around. I didn’t look back.

At school, the other kids avoided me. I didn’t blame them. I sat alone, like a ghost out of a campfire story—the girl who died but never really left.They didn’t know what to say. Death makes people uncomfortable. It tangles their tongues and turns their feet in the other direction.There were some clumsy, sad smiles. A few limp waves. But no one came close.I was glad when the bell rang and class began. At least the silence in the classroom wasn’t personal.The teacher called names from the register, voice steady and practiced, until it wasn’t.

“Amelia—”

A pause.

“—Winters.”

Silence.

I stared down at my desk.

She meant me. I knew she meant me. But she had said it the way she always had: Amelia and Elsie Winters. Like we were still a matched pair. A single breath meant for two names.My pencil trembled slightly in my hand.

“Just—Amelia, sorry,” the teacher corrected softly. Her eyes flicked toward me, then away again, like I might shatter if she looked too long.

I raised my hand without looking up. “Here.”

A few kids glanced my way. No one said anything. No one needed to. The absence sat heavy in the room.Class went on. Words were written. Equations chalked. Pages turned. But all I could hear was her name echoing in the space beside me that no one dared fill.

When school finished, I was glad. The choking hollow I had tried to escape at home was just as strong at school, maybe worse. So I wandered instead, letting my feet take me somewhere that wasn’t filled with silence or sideways stares.

I ended up at the lake. Still and gray like a mirror that had forgotten how to reflect properly.I sat by the edge and started skipping stones. They danced clumsily across the surface, leaving ripples that bent the world into something monstrous. My reflection, twisted and jagged, looked back at me — and beside it, hers. Always hers.

I cried then. I didn’t mean to, but the tears came anyway. I cried as I sat with my sister’s face shimmering back at me in the water, a ghost painted in trembling light. I think I said her name. I think I whispered I missed her. But the lake didn’t answer, and neither did she.

I wiped my face on my sleeve and hugged my knees, trying to breathe like the counselor at school had taught us once — slow, like waves. But the lake wasn’t calm anymore. The ripples hadn’t stopped where my stones had landed. They kept going, soft and slow and endless, like something beneath the surface was still moving.Then I heard it.A pluck — faint, high, and sharp, like a string being pulled taut and let go. Not quite a sound you'd expect from a lake. More like a violin, played wrong.I froze.

Another pluck. Then another. Like invisible fingers trying out an instrument they didn’t understand. The water began to shimmer oddly, not like before. The surface didn’t ripple — it trembled.I leaned forward, squinting. And there, just for a second, I saw it: something thin and silvery, like thread, trailing from the far reeds across the surface of the water. It vanished almost as quickly as it appeared, snapped back into the trees like it had been yanked.

I waited. Nothing else happened. But the air smelled wrong — sharp and sweet, like wilted flowers and honey left too long in the sun. I stood up, suddenly cold, and made my way home without looking back.

At home, my mother was still sitting at the dining room window. One trembling hand pressed against the glass as she stared out at the spot — just beyond the hedgerow — where I knew Amelia was buried, near the fence of the old field. She didn’t speak. I didn’t try to make her.

I went straight to my room. I didn’t feel like eating.

Her bed — Amelia’s bed — sat untouched across from mine, wires and tubes still trailing like wilted vines from beneath the blankets.I curled up on my own bed, facing the wall, and let sleep take me.Most mornings, when I wake up, my mother is already gone from the house. I’m not worried. I know where she goes.

She sits like a child beside Amelia’s headstone, staring out at the field behind it. She doesn’t speak. I don’t think she even cries anymore. Maybe you can only shed so many tears before your body forgets how.

My father is always gone too — but different. He throws himself into work, tilling the earth with quiet desperation, like if he digs deep enough something might grow that fills the hollow we’ve been left with. Like if he keeps his hands moving, the grief won’t have time to catch up.School got easier. People seemed happy to forget about the other half of me that no longer played in the playground. The world kept spinning, even though Amelia had fallen out of it.

Lessons went on, same as they always had — about the cycle of the year. Spring, when seeds were planted and carefully tended. Summer, when the plants bloomed and gave up their fruits, feeding us with what they’d grown. Autumn, when the days shortened and the Thread March began. And winter, when everything shriveled and died, and the earth was emptied, ready to begin again.

On my way home from school, I saw my mother—like a weeping angel statue frozen beside my sister’s grave. She didn’t move much, but her fingers traced delicate shapes in the air, as if she was trying to catch tiny butterflies dancing around her head. I couldn’t see a thing, but then I heard her laugh. A soft, trembling laugh — the first I’d heard in months.It was strange and beautiful, the sound of my mother laughing as she sat there, reaching for invisible butterflies by my sister’s grave.

As spring rolled on, the fields promised a great harvest this year. Hope and renewal stirred in the town. The first green shoots pushed through the earth, offering slow salutations to the sun.

But while my father’s fields thrived, the field behind my sister’s grave grew too. Strange sprouts broke through the soil like tufts of bristly hair, rough and wild. New talismans and iron crosses were hammered into the old wooden fence posts surrounding the space, warding off whatever might stir beneath.

I heard whispers among the villagers, fearful murmurs that the field was creeping beyond its old boundaries, swallowing more earth. I didn’t like to look at that field — it felt like a living thing, patient and waiting. As summer’s golden hue crept closer, the wind drifting over the old field sometimes sounded like children sighing — soft, fleeting whispers just beyond hearing.

At night, I’d see my mother like a ghost, dressed only in her white nightgown, padding barefoot to the fence beyond Amelia’s grave. Her hands clutched the rough wood as she stared out into the field. She seemed to be speaking to it, but I could never hear what she said.

I once told my father what I’d seen. He only said,

“Just leave your mother to her grief.”

And so I did. I was a child — what could I possibly say to ease a mother’s sorrow?

Summer had arrived, overflowing with light and life — blooming flowers, ripe fruits and vegetables, and longer days to while away. I was glad for the sunlight. The heat made that cold place growing inside me feel a little smaller. My father would come home, laden with crops he’d tilled with his own hands — hard-won trophies for his efforts. For a while, dinner was just the two of us, sitting in awkward silence at the table, neither sure what to say.

Often, I’d carry a plate of food out to the graveyard and sit beside my mother. A growing pile of untouched dishes sat beside her, forgotten.

She whispered softly into the field,

“When will you come back? I’ve waited so long. I miss you, my darling.”

Her words echoed the questions I longed to ask her — when would she come back to me? I missed her. Sometimes I’d bring a blanket, wrap it around her bony shoulders, but she didn’t seem to see me anymore.

A few times, friends from town tried to speak to her, to coax her inside. But she only looked past them, as if hypnotized by the swaying stalks that had slithered up from the unhallowed ground of the field.

One afternoon after school, I sat alone on a cold wooden pew in the small church. The stained glass windows filtered the late sunlight into dusty patches of color, but the warmth didn’t reach me. From the back, I heard murmurs—voices low and hurried. Neighbors, gathered after a funeral or a prayer meeting, whispering about the field behind my sister’s grave.

“They say it’s spreading again.”

“The crops are growing wild and strange this year.”

“Folks are afraid of what comes when autumn falls.”

I listened, clutching my coat tighter. What did they mean? Later, I found the priest kneeling by the altar, his hands folded tightly. I swallowed the lump in my throat and asked, “Father, what’s wrong with the field?”

He looked at me, his eyes shadowed and tired. “Some things are better left unspoken, child. The field… it holds memories—and something else. Come autumn, those memories stir.”

I didn’t ask more. But I could feel the weight of his words, heavy and cold, settling deep inside me. I had for the last few weeks noticed that thick wet earth from the field seemed to be spilling out past the rotting fences. Like hungry fingers stretching out to see how far they'd get.

As summer was coming to an end I noticed that strained faces were painted on our neighbours, people were boarding up windows and adding the same strange metal talismans above their doors. Children were forbidden from using the country lane that winded past the field now.

I didn’t understand what we were all preparing for. No one said it out loud. But everyone knew. I could feel it in the way people crossed the street when they saw my mother out walking. In the way no one met my eyes anymore. Like I had something catching in my gaze. Like if they looked too long they might see what was coming for them too.

That Sunday, I stayed after mass. The rest of the congregation filed out quickly, whispering behind raised hands and hasty goodbyes. I lingered in the pew, my knees tucked up, watching Father Emlyn as he snuffed the altar candles one by one.He must have known I was still there. Still, he said nothing until I spoke.

“Why are they all so afraid?” I asked. “Why are they putting those metal things over their doors?”

He looked at me for a long moment. Then he sighed, the sound like something old escaping him.

“They’re not afraid of death,” he said softly, “not really. Death is part of the cycle. We make peace with it, or we try to. What they fear is remembering. The ones who return.. remember... Remember a little of who they were. But they don't come back whole."

I didn’t understand, not completely. But I remembered the wind in the trees that whispered like children. I remembered my mother laughing at things I couldn’t see.He wouldn’t say more. Just turned away, his robes heavy as he walked down the aisle, leaving me in the colored hush of the stained glass.

I stopped glancing at the field and so did everyone else, apart from my mother. The strange stalks that had grown from the earth swayed gently in the wind like corn husks heavy and drooping at the end. Strange growths fell limp and dangling out of their sides like trailing limbs. Faint shimmers could be seen twinkling above the crops like falling dewdrops.

Sometimes I thought I could hear them — the stalks. Not rustling in the wind, but... creaking, like wood warped by weight. Like something too heavy trying to stand. I tried not to look. We all did. We spoke of the weather, the market, the school harvest fair. But every conversation curled nervously around autumn, never quite touching it. We were all watching the calendar in our own quiet ways. Waiting for the Thread March.

Autumn came and the place became a ghost town as soon as the sun began to set the streets were empty. Noone left their homes again until the first sign of day break. The atmosphere was heavy with anticipation like everyone knew some great bomb was about to drop on us but we didn't know exactly when and it just stayed above our heads looming over us all.

My father had started to having to carry my mother home every evening as the sun went down as she wouldn't come in willingly. The doors were locked tight, window shutters fastened and lights dimmed. I asked once why we had to lock everything so tight. My father just said,

"We don't want to invite them in."

When I asked who, he didn’t answer.

At night, I sometimes crept to my bedroom window and peeked through the slats of the shutters. The field was dark — darker than the rest of the world, like it was swallowing light. But the stalks moved. Not in the wind. They twitched. Jerked. Strained like something inside them was waking up.

The whole season carried on this way — a living dread crawling behind us all as we tried to go about our daily lives. I felt like I was drowning in it, gasping for air that only filled my lungs with icy water.Then came the day of the Thread March. Late in the season, just before Old Man Winter drapes the world in his frosted sleep.

The school was closed. There were no sounds in the streets. No children laughing. No footsteps. No birds. And then I heard it.

Plunk.

The sound of a tight string being plucked. Just one, slow and solemn.

Plunk.

Then another.

Plink. Plunk.

Like a ghostly orchestra tuning itself beneath the earth.

My skin prickled. The sound grew louder, faster — like some excited violinist strumming for unseen dancers. At first, the melody felt far away, drifting across the fields. Then it came closer. Then I heard the laughter. Children’s laughter. Light and distant and echoing. I crept to my window. The street below was dark, deep in shadow. I could barely make anything out at first. And then I saw them.

Lurching shapes spilled over the fence around the field — clumsy silhouettes, misshapen and uneven. They clambered and stumbled forward with grotesque movements, as if tugged along by invisible strings. Their limbs jerked upward like puppets in the hands of some giant child.

They weren’t walking.They were dancing. Badly. Joyously. Horribly.

Tangled rows of these things gathered in the graveyard, then spilled out into the street in a jerky parade. A Morris dance of the dead. Their limbs flicked, their heads wobbled, and all the while the sound of laughter and singing grew louder — children’s voices wrapped in the weeping song of plucked threads.

I watched them pass the house. I couldn’t move. My heart thundered in my ears. One of the shapes stopped. It dangled oddly in the breeze, limbs swinging loose. Its head turned to the side in twitchy, birdlike motions — as if it had heard something, or caught a scent it knew. Slowly, it moved toward our house.

It scuttled forward on legs that didn’t work right, bones bending wrong beneath thin, root-bound skin. Its head jerked left, then right, like a moth to a flame. Then it came to the door. And scratched. Lightly at first. Then harder. Like a cat trying to claw at a mousehole. It laughed. A soft, broken laugh — and then, horribly, it spoke.

“Mama… Mama… I’ve come back to you.”

Ice filled my veins. I knew that voice. Amelia.The sister who had shared a womb with me. The one who pretended to be me in school just to take my spelling test. Who told ghost stories in bed. Who was swallowed by the ground. I heard the crash of furniture below. My father’s voice — strained, cracking. The high, wet pleading of my mother. Begging.

“Let me out—let me out—she’s come home—my baby’s come home—”

I think my father tried to hold her back. But she got past him. I heard the bolt unlock, the door swing wide and then she ran into the night. I saw her fall to her knees before the ruin of my sister.

I saw her kiss what was left of Amelia’s face — now tangled with root and husk, tufts of corn-hair sprouting from her scalp in strange places. My mother wrapped her arms around her and cooed lullabies to the rot. Behind her, my father sobbed on the hallway floor.

I saw her kiss what was left of Amelia’s face — now tangled with root and husk, tufts of corn-hair sprouting from her scalp in strange places. My mother wrapped her arms around her and cooed lullabies to the rot. Behind her, my father sobbed on the hallway floor. And then I saw them.Fine threads — glittering in the moonlight — drifting through the air like spider’s silk.

They wrapped around my mother’s arms. Her legs. She didn’t seem to notice — not until one curled tight around her throat. She choked. Her eyes widened with horror. She tried to scream, but the thread pulled taut. Her legs kicked and jerked like a dying puppet — and then she went still, swaying softly in the breeze.

Amelia clapped her misshapen hands with joy. She gripped my mother’s limp fingers and pulled her upright. Together, they skipped into the street, dancing off into the night to join their new friends in the parade.

The parade moved on, and the door stayed open. I didn’t move. I couldn’t. There was no room left in me for anything but silence.

The next year whilst I stood beside my sister's grave I saw two strange stalks rising from the earth twisting together like an embrace. Maybe the soil cradled her better than we ever could. If there was peace to be found, I hope the earth gave it to her.