Being Egyptian with a different mind
Im not sure if this is the right place but I just need to vent a bit Im an Egyptian guy living in a pretty traditional working class area and Ive got a totally different mindset and even a different belief system or no belief system at all since Im an atheist I always feel like theres no one like me around I cant really connect with new people and honestly the whole idea of starting from zero and getting to know someone feels like way too much effort And even when I do meet people theyre just very different from me a lot of them are kinda ignorant just running on emotions not really using their brains Im not even blaming them its just how religion Islam and the environment they grew up in shaped them they were raised on traditions and habits that made them stop thinking for themselves and just follow the people before them the righteous ancestors or whatever and if you actually think for yourself your reward is hell according to a so called perfect god who somehow still needs weak humans to worship him Since I was a kid Ive been paying the price for things that werent even my fault I cant talk to girls and its really hard for me theres a reason for that back in primary school they separated boys and girls so the whole idea of talking to the opposite gender felt weird from the start and now its just straight up difficult Ive got a few months left till I turn 20 and it feels like time is flying while Im still stuck yeah Im improving myself my skills my knowledge even studying physics and math but I still cant find anyone like me not in the way they think not in how they see the world