Confession: My attendings think I'm a good public speaker because I gave a presentation once after taking multiple tequila shots
I am terrified of speaking in public, I hate even giving presentations or lectures in medical school or for our residents/attendings during morning lecture.
I had to give an oral presentation on a niche topic at a local conference in front of probably 100-200 people (experts in the field btw) and I was terrified that I would look and sound like a fool. I practiced as much as I could the night before, agonizing over every word and detail in every slide.
The day of, unbeknownst to my attendings, I snuck off with a couple of my friends about 30 minutes before the presentation and downed several tequila shots, enough to get me somewhat buzzed and lower my inhibition, and then went up on stage and apparently crushed it. I was able to crack jokes and not stutter my words.
I never told my attendings and now they think I enjoy public speaking and I'm just a level-headed dude who can present topics confidently when I'm not
Has anyone else done this before a big public event of am I just crazy