I miss my friends and I dont know what to do anymore
TW: For mentions of SA
My friends (to make a long story short) essentially dropped me at the most vulnerable time in my life, I was afraid I was pregnant, and that the baby was a result of sa/🍇. However, I am thankfully not pregnant, but still, the time I was worrying was very difficult and scary. Their reasoning for dropping me was essentially that I would 'choose a guy over our friendship.' I personally find this to be false, as I saw them almost every day in school and tried my best to spend time with them, and I always said yes to hang out with them outside of school. On top of that, I tried to always answer their FaceTime calls while trying to also juggle my relationship with my boyfriend. And although I can get where they're coming from, I find it a little hypocritical, as one of my other friends does the exact same things I do, and my friend dismisses it completely.
I feel hurt, betrayed, and just so alone, as these were my main friend group. But despite all that, I still miss them and care for them. Like these were MY people, the ones I always went to for anything, the highs and lows. Sure, I have other friends, but it just isn't the same. Especially with senior year coming to a close, I see everyone else with their friend groups partaking in fun activities with their friends, and I'm just there. Prom, senior skip day, graduation, and everything else, I'm afraid that I'm going to be alone and waste the last few months of my high school experience, and not live it with the friends I love and care about the most.