37 f. I noticed something firm in my armpit a couple months ago. It wasn’t hard, just firm, I couldn’t tell if it was a lymph node, ligament, etc. so I watched it for a bit before scheduling a check up with OBGYN, just to be safe.
I lost a parent four months ago, and between my grief and stress, I had actually convinced myself I was being a hypochondriac, and the armpit was nothing. I just needed someone to tell me it was fine so I could move on.
Well, the breast exam confirmed the armpit needed imaging, and also found suspicious breast tissue I wasn’t aware of. So I was ordered for a mammogram and an ultrasound for both. I got the imaging done, again thinking this couldn’t possibly escalate beyond that.
My results came back BIRADS 4/5 with an order to biopsy both tissue samples. Had biopsy done yesterday, and now I’m waiting in utter fear for the results.
I’m single and I don’t feel like I can talk to anyone about it. Everyone in my family is grieving and processing so much as it is. I don’t want to share with friends either because I don’t want to scare anyone.
After all of these escalations I’m terrified for what they’re going to tell me next. The waiting is torture and it feels very isolating. Casting my net here if anyone else is feeling this way.