Had my HSG test, now I’m spiraling
I don’t have many people to talk to about this, and I already broke down to my husband last night, so I hope it’s ok if I share here.
I was both nervous and excited going into my appointment because I was just looking forward to having some answers, but the thought of them sticking a catheter into my uterus did not sound fun. 😅 Overall the experience wasn’t terrible. The doctor was super kind and walked me through every step and everything she was doing. The speculum was ICE cold which I did not love, and the insertion of the catheter was kinda painful, but no worse than period cramps. The nurse assisting had the screen angled to where I could see it as the machine was taking the x ray images, so that helped me keep my mind off the discomfort. The procedure was pretty quick, and the feeling of relief as everything came out was great lol.
I could tell immediately just from watching the progression of the dye on the images that there was something up with my left tube. Once it was over, the doctor went over the images and gave me her initial thoughts (she wasn’t my primary doctor, so I’ll get my doc’s thoughts at a follow up appointment). She pointed out some areas of dye pooling in my uterus, which may indicate some irregular tissue (already anticipated that based on previous ultrasounds). My right fallopian tube looked pretty good, although it was kinda cramped in there. My left tube on the other hand had a lot of dye pooling before it eventually did spill out. She said that could mean scar tissue or a dilated tube. She didn’t give me much info on what that could indicate (although now I’m concerned about hydrosalpinx), but did say that my doctor will probably order more imaging or we’ll go to surgery. The office called me yesterday to confirm that she does want to do a follow up appointment with us “within the next month”. I’m hoping we can get in sooner rather than later because I really want to get the ball rolling, especially if surgery is the likely outcome. She didn’t outright say I have endo, but it feels like that might be the case. My doc diagnosed me with DOR at our last appointment, so it’s all been kind of overwhelming and I still feel like I hadn’t really processed it, until last night. I broke down to my husband over the fact that I could lose one of my tubes. I also just really have a bad feeling that I have endometriosis. It’s all just been a lot.
I did a round of clomid this month and have my mid-cycle ultrasound today. If it looks good, we have a trigger shot ready to go. But I’m not even sure it’s worth using the shot if the likelihood of getting pregnant in my uterus’s current state is not super high, but I guess we’ll see what they say. I also feel like if the follicle is showing on the left side, then in would be a waste of a shot. Our insurance doesn’t cover any of the meds, so we’ve been paying out of pocket. I would love to be able to save this trigger shot for another time and not waste the $80, but we’ll see.
I’m just really sad. We’ve been trying since November 2024 and started seeing a RE last month and so far it just feels like a lot of bad news and more waiting as we do more tests, possible surgery, etc.