I only talk my mother language why my parents and Irefuse to speak other languages with them
(sorry for the long title) I'm not sure if that's the correct subreddit for this but I'm not sure were else to go.
To make it short I imigranted from Portugal when I was 8 (I'm 18 now), at home we only speak Portuguese not only because it's easier but I don't speak any other languages around them. When someone how doesn't speak Portuguese is at home or we're outside I speak to my parents in Portuguese, speak very low to the person or don't speak at all and just nod and make hand gestures to make my self understand.
My mother made me read some books in french when I was younger but I spoke very low so we stopped after a couple of weeks.
With my older sister we sometimes speak in English but it's only by text and yet again when we're speaking English to each other I speak very low with a Portuguese accent (even when I talk I have more of a British accent) and with people in my entourage who speak French when I speak in English I speak with a French accent but that weird rule only apply with short sentence but when it's a conversation I'll speak normally.
I don't feel embarrassed with my French or my English it just blocks when Im going to speak, I do have a small speech problem but they show up when I'm reading something or with some random words that doesn't really matter.
It's annoying for both parts and I never found an actual explanation for this specially because it's been happening for the past 10 years.