Low Risk Exposure (Looking for Advice)
Hi everyone. To start ,I will preface by saying, I know that mine was a low Risk Exposure but somehow the anxiety and the catastrophizing doesnt go away. Plus a bit alone in this journey thats why I am turning towards the community.
I had a Protected vaginal sex and oral sex (new condom each time) with a random girl. As far as I know and saw,there was no breakage or leakage. Couple of hours later I started spiralling and going into what if the condom broke, or she was positive etc etc. I got started on PEP (Biktarvy) roughly 8-9 hours post Exposure. Been two weeks so far.
By all accounts ,this is a low Risk event, but somehow the anxiety is killing me. I keep drudging up hypotheticals on how maybe the condom broke,or there was a micro tear,or what if she was positive , or what if the pep fails.
I try to ground myself by saying that pep is super effective but then my brain comes up with maybe you will be the exception. You will be 0.01% that fails etc etc.
I am just looking for Advice on how to deal with these thoughts ,and anxious spirals of excessive research paired with reassurance seeking.
I felt the best way was to turn to people who may have gone through the same or worse and still everything went turned up okay.
Any help/advice ,personal success stories are welcome.