wanted to post a type me because so far I have only typed myself and I want a better picture, explanations for typings appreciated.
>How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
I'm too old. Also I'm a woman. I am a thing that exists. I don't know how else to feel about myself. I just operate to my ability and from what I know in the conditions that I am given and I like to think I'm doing my best, though I feel limited with the narrow gaze and mental contraptions I get stuck in. I'm weird as hell.
>Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
I'm diagnosed with autism, social anxiety, and ocd
>If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
This is basically what I do on a daily basis. It gets lonely but I have no other options. I don't relate to anyone.
>How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
I definitely have more ideas than I execute, and I forget them right as they come to me. I've wanted to write about ideas and emotional revelations. It has mostly to do with my own interior or the state of things in the world and how I've connected it together. I end up writing less than half of it down in what feels like an incomplete idea.
>Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
Nope, and there's a ton of reasons for that. For one I'm not charismatic or dependable in any way, I'm really awkward. And also I just work better alone. I have a vision that only I can see, and I'm not very good at explaining it. People always misunderstand what I'm trying to get at and I struggle to correct them because I suck at communication. Plus social anxiety or whatever.
>Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
Not coordinated by any means, but I am precise. It probably has to do with my perfectionism. I had a pottery class and I enjoyed it a lot. I would spend my lunches alone working extra time to work on my pottery projects. I suck at drawing but I was oddly good at sculpting. You can be surprisingly good at developing random skills when your standards for yourself are way too fucking high. I don't recommend it though, it's not good for your mental health.
>Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
In an unconventional way, I think I could be considered artistic, but there is not that much art being produced, and it comes out primarily in writings, which aren't great. I am definitely an appreciator of art and beautiful things. My favorite form of art is music, which I listen to a lot but don't like to talk about too much with people.
>What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
The past feels so distant to me, the present is uninteresting, and the future is whatever happens next. There's not much I can say about it.
>How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
I will most likely do it unless it's completely out of my comfort zone because I like to feel like I have a shred of humanity left in me.
>Do you need logical consistency in your life?
If coherence counts, then I guess. I like to feel like nothing in the equation has been left out.
>How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
It can't be there unless there's a clear goal in mind, which I haven't figured out yet. Can't be productive if there's no product, then it's only mindless doing.
>Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
No, and I feel like that should be obvious because of previous answers, but I'll answer anyways for clarification. I'm never sure enough of myself to have a clear goal in mind that I want to assert, let alone force onto others.
>What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
Watching paint dry. But actually, I have a few. They aren't consistent hobbies. I'll crochet or knit sometimes. I'm a beginner tho. I've made jewelry in the past. I read a bit. But I mostly think.
>How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
Improvise as I go.
>What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
I have mild narcissism and I've wanted to be famous before. Whatever it is I decide on, I want creative control, and I want it to be an isolated effort. I want a lesbian lover that I can cuddle up with into eternity inside my nature home. Realistically, I'm gonna rot in my head forever.
>What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
Like, anything that could possibly go wrong in the world. The center of it all though, I think, is a lack of control and needing to feel invulnerable.
>What do the "highs" in your life look like?
The path is not certain, but the directions are clear. My self esteem is at a high, and I'm actually okay with things.
>What do the "lows" in your life look like?
I have no way of getting out of this.
>How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
Lol no. Now am I aware of my surroundings while I do it? I didn't think you could be.
>How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
Now, the correct approach is to stall the chance that you have to make an important decision as much as you can, and when that comes let's hope you have processed enough to be decisive.
>How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
I would say that they are pretty important because they are what make me, me and inform the decisions that I make. Being more familiar with them grants me freedom from the whims of others. It is a long, grueling journey to process them all, but the clarity is worth it.
>Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
Yeah, because I feel that explaining things that are too complex in the moment is too difficult.
It does piss me off sometimes, having to superficially accept things that you strongly feel are wrong but have no ability to fully articulate, and the moment is too quick. I would say it happens a lot but I have been able to sometimes fight back.
>Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
I like to cooperate with people mostly. I don't go out of my way to break rules unless I genuinely feel it is unjust, and if I do I'll do it as covertly as I can. I don't like letting things happen so sometimes I have been vocal despite my very introverted and anxious nature.