Having an affair
I'm looking for some support. I've been caretaking for my boyfriend with aggressive multiple sclerosis for the past seven years. He's slowly been deteriorating over time and he's not the person I remember wanting to date anymore. He yells the n-word at the TV constantly, calls everything gay (very hard for me as a queer person), and converted back to Catholicism when I've always been an atheist. We don't have a sex life, he is not even capable of getting in bed for a cuddle anymore or even touching me. But I am the only one he relies on, so there's nothing I can do. Everything seems to be about him, he bitched at me this morning about the state of my room when I was lying in bed sick. I wasn't even supposed to be in bed sick, I was supposed to be at work because I've been working six days a week the past six months to try and make sure I can maintain the same income level to take care of him.
Suddenly this other man started expressing interest in me and one thing led to another. Now I'm having an affair, the one thing I told myself I wouldn't do. But I've been happier the past two weeks than I remember feeling in a long, long time.