u/alexisdarandom

(not completely sure what to tag it as, so im just gonna tag it as. a rant-)

Pen has been my highest kin ever since i found out what a fictionkin is and realized that i am one. i do like being a Pen kin, sometimes there are times where i don’t but still, most of the time i like kinning him, and i wouldn’t mind if he actually is an id

Pencil and Gold Ingot on the other hand?? errrr.. i have no idea how to feel about that

i’ve expressed before that i don’t like that i kin Pencil. she may be one of my favorites, but that does not change that i hate kinning her. heck, even my first time mentioning that yk. i kin her was me saying that i hate kinning her

Gold Ingot. i haven’t expressed that i don’t like kinning him as much as i do with Pencil, but i don’t really like that i kin him either. actually i did make a post last week expressing that. which also funnily enough, he’s also in the same boat as Pencil as in being one of my favorites (my favorite ppt2 characters are the ingot cousins (plus Ace) though im not sure who i like the most), and i kin him but dislike it

um

i feel like that kind of got a bit vent-y mb 😭

but yea- Pen, Pencil and Gold Ingot may be ids but idk how i feel about two of them possibly being that

this is the 3rd one today lol

i may like making them

uhhhhhhh

i had a school dance tonight, and i was with one of my friends (who used to be my qpp though he doesn’t want to date anyone at all anymore, which im ok with that) and another one of my friends, who is an Eraser fictionkin.

for some reason, after he got picked up first, i felt uneasy. i thought maybe its just separation anxiety because well. i *do* have separation anxiety. but it felt weird. then my other friend left, which i was the last one left. still felt uneasy. and i was waiting for a bit

i did see a few of my other friends, and tried talking to them. though they were with their other friends, and it was kind of awkward.

then i kinda got reminded of Pen and Snowball in tpot 17. and then i realized that i kinshifted as Pen for some reason

i mean. i guess im glad that i finally shifted as Pen after a while, as most of my recent shifts have been either Pencil (mainly tpot or not in a specific season) or Gold Ingot (ppt2), but its just. um. yea

i guess im doing somewhat better now that i’ve been home for a bit?? but still shifted

i think im gonna keep listening to my favorite song (which is also my biggest comfort song right now) for a bit since that’s helping too so uhhhh

- 🖊️

yes they’re all Green Day themed cause i love Green Day

also this is the 3rd time i’ve made kandi during school lol my teachers don’t care that i do just as long as im not distracting anyone 🤷

currently shifted as Gold Ingot from paper puppets/ppt2. he may be more of an important kin than i thought.

it’s hard to explain, but most of my kins. don’t matter that much?? but two of them as of right now (Pen and Pencil, both from bfdi) are extremely important, and very high kins, but im not quite sure if they’re ids, despite how important and high of kins they are.

well Gold Ingot is my 3rd highest kin, and im starting to think he may be on the same level as Pen and Pencil, that he’s one of my most important kins.

i don’t want him to be on that level though

i already felt shitty and guilty when i kinfirmed Pencil, and felt even more like that when i finally accepted and kinfirmed Gold Ingot. i don’t want two out of three of my most important kins to be like that

but oh well. i guess im just a shithead anyway. fml.

- 🟨

i used the rest of my dark blue beads for this gulp

also maybe i should’ve tied it differently or maybe a different string but i still am glad with how it turned out

also i did confirm that Bottle (ppt2) was a fictionflicker- BUT FINALLY AFTER A FEW MONTHS I’VE KINFIRMED ACE

another one who is one of my f/os but i also kin wow lol (the other one is Pen who is from bfdi-)

i made both of these yesterday during school (my teachers didn’t care that i was making kandi during class lol) i just forgot to post it