Question to navigate New job
I just started a new job that was supposed to be simple but faced a pace and a team oriented cleaning job (March 21st) It is also my first graveyard job
I havent worked in a team since highschool and was really excited to work in a team again.
I have found it is filled with drama, open toxicity that is met with praise, teammates not telling the entire truth/story, a self-claimed supervisor misrepresenting my words to a team lead that she's friends with. Overall, I feel like I'm just becoming a scape-goat from unrealistic expectations due to upper management wanting things done quicker
I am expected to be as fast as everyone else who had been here a whole month or longer. Steps in my hands-on training were skipped and made to second hand.
I am still too slow, where co-workers openly negatively comment on it, despite working through my sickness and even working through lunches to do my part and be quicker. I find it uncomfortable to take my lunches here
Today, I was assigned a new team lead who said they were doing an "anonymous survey for their team leads" and made comments. Among the lines, the big boss wants to know why you're slow. as well as only spoke to me.
why do the team leads who are complaining about me just talk to me? "we don't want to be confrontational."
told em that would just brew drama. and then he said they claimed I'm late from coming back from lunch, which wasn't even true.
I want to find a proper way to document my work, job in a quick manner that no one can say "oh you altered it to fit your narrative."
Im not perfect, and I've messed up more than I'd like to admit, but I feel like my co-workers don't want me around after the first week. some of them are cool, though. They just arnt in leadership.
I'm pretty confident their trying to paper trail me for all sorts of stuff without fully talking to me. as I walked into a conversation to sign out on a paper and their conversation left me knowing my first week I had 3 complaints on me no one told me about or addressed and I have no absolute idea what those could be about but with simple self-education from that conversation it was very clearly about me.
unfortunately, I have some financial constraints, and I've never had to worry about this before. I didn't get a chance to make a good impression on upper management as far as I'm aware I'm just a bad case all around to them. I haven't gotten any praises for anything I've done.
TLDR;
Need documentation method one cant say I altered
how do I navigate a job where I feel people have been trying to get rid of me since week one?
How to navigate an area that seems to think I'm a bad employee when Ive never had a poor job performance before?