u/ZealousidealWin1006

i have always been a pensive and shy person who tends to spiral from something as insignificant as a person not smiling back at me or thanking me for opening the door for them like i basically require people to be as mindful and considerate of my feelings as i am of theirs all the time 😅😭💔

i guess it’s because i’m someone who, even on my worst days, tunes in empathically to everyone around me and detaches from my inner world when in the company of others.

i know people aren’t a monolith, and everyone handles things differently, but i wish more people were like us in caring profoundly about others’ feelings.

the weird thing is, flagrant rejection in the form of someone simply leaving doesn’t bother me because sometimes people don’t click or vibe well, and i usually don’t take that personally, but what’s worse is when you’re around somebody, and they look super serious or annoyed, or their energy is off.

i feel like ned flanders in a world of homers sometimes agh

i’ll be 30 in a few years, and there hasn’t been a single meaningful connection in my whole life. i had friends throughout school, but all those relationships were shallow because deep down, i’ve always felt like a fraud and a loner who would often go around finding other loners to take under my wing ha

idk it’s so alienating and hurtful just to exist.

hello !! this is a throwaway account, but i’m posting here in the hopes i may be able to foster a meaningful connection with someone who embodies everything i have searched for in a potential partner but never found.

i’m not exactly looking for a typical rr dynamic (muscly dominant mommy & femboy) but i am looking for a highly sensitive man with BIG little spoon energy who wants to feel small and protected in my arms!! :’)

i’m a shy but friendly person who is honestly not comfortable being assertive so if that’s your thing, don’t waste your time reading the rest!

i’m on the petite side (5’1 and ~109 lbs), with black medium length hair, brown eyes, a babyish face, and i’m half south asian/indian and half white 🇮🇳🪷

we can swap photos later, but i’d ideally like to talk to you for a little while to see if we vibe first 💜

idk what to say now 😭😭 i feel like i’ll end up rambling bc my adhd brain will spiral out with all these tangential references and half-coherent stream-of-consciousness gobbledygook before any train of thought gets back on track sooo yeah!! & i probably won’t trim the fat off this post for the same reason that in high school i was never able to highlight anything less than the whole page whenever instructed to underline whatever was most important (isn’t everything significant depending on who’s reading???) hahaha

well !! here are some things about me:

i like anime & cowboy bebop is my favorite ❤️

i also enjoy watching video essays on YT (horses and darkmatter2525 are my favorite channels). i cycle through hyper-fixations at random like my interest is piqued by most things unless it’s outdoorsy or hands-on (although i do like the idea of traveling more and seeing all the world’s historic wonders)

i really like spicy food and hardly break a sweat eating the spiciest Korean noodles ever 💪🔥

i’m obsessed with 60s, 70s and 80s music

i frequently vent about how unhinged and overbearing my mother is lmao

i’m a night owl so if you need somebody to stay up with you all night to eagerly listen to your thoughts and feelings i can be that person for you! though we shouldn’t indulge our bad habits aha :’))

i like art, poetry, psychology, neuroscience, and story writing. i’m also big on psychoanalysis hehe :’) i recently finished reading john bowlby’s final volume on attachment theory.

i have a bachelor of science in psychology but idk what to do with it atp 🙃🥲 my biggest dream is to help others.

i have never been in a relationship before and i’m not interested in ever losing my virginity. however, due to my asexuality i honestly wouldn’t mind you having relations with other women! i would hope we have a special connection regardless !!

i’m actually very “normie” presenting irl and maintain a sort of “hidden weirdness.” people tend to infantilize me and act like i’m soft and delicate due to the way i appear stereotypically feminine but i’m a fundamentally dogmatic & emotionally stoic person who feels pressured to censor her sometimes controversial and overly clinical takes on everything.

i’m not sure what i’m looking for 100%, but…

i would like someone to imbue me with renewed purpose. i’m looking for someone who absolutely LOVES the idea of being held and comforted and soothed ❤️ someone jovial, expressive, someone who can weave an entire story out of simply making coffee for themselves in the morning. someone who writes very long texts… yapping about the minutiae of his day. please!! i’m so tired of dry exchanges. hopefully your weirdness complements mine and i can give you love and tenderness for years to come, something that won’t fray at the seams.

i like guys on the chubbier side for some reason maybe it’s like an opposites attract kind of thing, i also find excessive hairiness and glasses p attractive. and shortness. i would also prefer if you were older than me 🤍

i’m a bit of a puritanical teetotaler but v progressive.

my mbti / jungian type is INFJ 5w6 521.

whew !! if you read this far, don’t hesitate to DM me with a fun fact about yourself and a long message 🙏🏻🥺🙏🏻💜 take care everyone.