Account of my first solo trip/Christmas
I have a certain social phobia, which is probably why I decided to travel and spend Christmas in a city doing sightseeing.
December 24th: Not everything went as planned. I went to a very large city, my hotel was in the center, I tried to go out a few times and there were some homeless people who approached me strangely, until one said it was better if I hid my bag or it could be stolen.
December 25th: I had planned many things, but my social anxiety overwhelmed me, especially when I went to the restaurant and I was the only person alone at a table. I spent the whole day in the hotel room hugging Toddy (the name of my stuffed deer), I couldn't go out, it was strange as if something was holding me back. I felt frustrated for not fulfilling my plans, but my friends and my brother texted me reassuring me. I can say that Christmas dinner was a "magical" moment. I ordered Yakisoba and watched a Christmas movie. I didn't like the movie or the Yakisoba, but I felt a great peace within me. I was fulfilling my dreams and breaking barriers, and Toddy was there with me. It was a special Christmas dinner without all the noise from the family and those judgmental looks.
December 26th: I was very anxious to go to the restaurant, I almost didn't go, but I felt Toddy supporting me and telling me to go. I went and came back very quickly. I received many messages from my friend and mustered the courage to visit the city's tourist attractions. I went in one of those ride-sharing cars. At the end of the day, I was very happy and very proud.
I'm planning my next Christmas trip; this time I invited a colleague to go with me.
Note: I had to delete the first post I made because of a translation error.