I’ve never dated, but I already feel exhausted by relationships
Hey everyone,
I hope you’re all doing well.
Before I say anything, I just hope people in the comments can be respectful and reply with honesty and logic, especially if you’ve been through something similar yourself. I’m posting this to understand myself better, not to be judged.
I’m 20, and I feel like some things from my childhood affected the way I see relationships now. When I was younger( Primary school), some boys used to tease me and connect me with girls even when there was absolutely nothing between us ( in other terms : kaytl3oha 3liya haha ). Maybe it sounds small, but I think it left a mark on me and made me develop a kind of discomfort or fear around love and emotional closeness
As I grew up, of course I started liking some girls at school like anyone else, but most of the time it was one-sided, and I often ended up in the friendzone. I’ve never actually been in a relationship before.
Lately, I’ve been reading a bit about relationships, attachment, and emotional patterns, and I realized something: being genuine does not always seem to “work” today, and that honestly feels exhausting. I’m naturally someone who replies fast, gives attention, and shows care. For me, that feels normal. But with time, I started feeling like some people see that as being too available, and that somehow lowers your value in their eyes.
And that’s where I feel confused.
Because on one side, I want to stay genuine and kind. On the other side, I sometimes feel like healthy relationships are becoming rare, emotional unavailability is becoming normal, and if you stay true to yourself, people may not value you the way you hoped.
I also feel like I may have developed some attachment issues and fear of losing people, maybe because of emotional emptiness or things from the past. And I genuinely want to understand this better, not just complain.
If anyone has gone through something similar, I’d really appreciate hearing your perspective & how do you deal with attachment issues or the fear of losing people before they even become truly close?
& if you wants to share advice or point out where I might be thinking the wrong way, my DMs are open.
Thanks to anyone who reads this.