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I’m really just curious to hear the other side of things. As someone that greatly desires to be sought after so fervently, I’ve always wondered what it’s like for the person doing the watching.
I yearn to be desired for, to be observed and studied with immense detail, to be protected and claimed from afar. What does that sort of feeling bring about inside someone with such a specific goal?
Is there a certain thrill that you feel? Do you feel like you’re doing a favor? What thoughts are going through your head when there’s someone you just can’t take your focus away from?

Curious and open to all responses.

That’s essentially what this is: a fantasy off my chest.
It seems so exciting to be watched, observed, studied throughout my day to day life. Is it so wrong that I’ve already been behaving like I am being stalked? I’ll admit, sometimes I leave the blinds open a little longer than I should after the sun goes down. I choose my undergarments carefully from time to time. I’ve even gotten in the habit of taking better physical care of myself.
I live a fairly normal life, but I’ve been told that there are aspects of it that are “aesthetic” and “intriguing,” such as my job, my cats, and even my hobbies. I thought it was a little selfish to let myself indulge in the romanticizing of my own life, but I can’t help but to wonder how infatuated someone else could become with “normal.”
I’ve read books like Lights Out and Haunting Adeline to scratch the itch, but it’s only deepened my want. To be the subject of someone so mysterious— so obsessed that they bend morals for your sake just gets my heart racing. I like to feel protected, safe, and dominated all at the same time, so that sort of rush is what I feel I’ve been craving.
I don’t know how to finish this, honestly; it was at least a breath of fresh air to finally put this into words!

ETA: TLDR - 23f, have always fantasized about being stalked by someone dark and “morally gray”. Trying to live out my fantasy? Have always found myself uninteresting but I guess that’s where the fun begins!