My GF(23) and myself(22) have been dating for a little over a year but the last 3 months have been an absolute nightmare. A little background information, my gf has BPD which affects her emotional regulation and sensitivity to changes in the endocrine system which she is medicated for. Our relationship was fantastic from when we met in February last year and we were absolutely obsessed with each other, absolutely and positively in a love id never felt before, however, that all changed in late January this year when we fell pregnant. You know the saying, young, dumb and full of c**. I feel like it was absolutely my fault and we ended up agreeing to book an abortion which was insanely difficult for both of us. At the clinic the doctor piqued our interest with the mirena IUD and said she could implant it in the same operation, we both agreed that this would be good to stop this shit show from happening again, so we went ahead with it thinking nothing of it. Of course, the doctor rambled her bs about there being basically no adverse psychological side effects or dramatic hormonal shifts and, of course, we ate it up and left no crumbs.
Its now been a little over a month since the procedure and i feel like I'm in the goddamn torture chamber. I can tell shes growing increasingly more emotionally numb towards me as the days roll on, its like the only emotion she can muster towards me is guilt and sadness and she refuses to give the idea of the IUD affecting her to such an extent any merit. I can sense that shes fallen out of love with me and not being emotionally reciprocated by someone who used to look at me like i was the only thing God ever created with any meaning has been heartbreaking to say the least. I’m now scared and confused and i want to get the IUD removed but she doesnt seem to want to connect the dots and she told me shes comfortable with the IUD in which sucks for me. Am I going crazy? Like have any women or men experienced something similar here? Am i in the wrong? Is it too late? I really really just want things to go back to how they were if thats even possible because im still absolutely enamoured by my beautiful girl.