So much work, I’m giving up
It’s not even “feeling like it”, i really do think i am
for the past couple months ive been having to catch up over and over in my online program. i put work off for a week and then get stressed the next trying to cram all the work i missed (which is usually more than 6 lessons a day) into one day, all for my grades to be so harsh when i know i’m really doing good. i feel so discouraged seeing that an 80% is a C or a 93 is only a B, all this stupid arbitrary stuff. learning isn’t fun, i’m getting bible mixed in with every single subject i have and it makes me feel like nothing i’m learning is actually real
i’ve really lost the passion i had for learning and i don’t see the point in doing any of this anymore. now everyone’s asking me about ACT and SAT tests and it’s nothing but this over and over, now i have something new to worry about and the more the test dates get pushed back the more of a failure i feel like. i’m only in 11th, i should be happy i’m almost done
i feel like crap. i’ve been stuck in this loop for years, but i like being homeschooled so i don’t want it to change that much either. i don’t know what i want anymore