I know I have nothing to worry about, but I can’t stop.
Me and my boyfriend have been dating for over a year. We’re still relatively young (college age) and we’re both each other’s longest relationship.
However, we’ve both had one serious relationship in the past, mine less so. I dated someone for a little less than a year. He however dated a girl relatively recently (they broke up 4 months before we started dating), and were dating for around a year, but discussed legitimate future things.
I love him so much - I’ve grown so much being with him. But in my past relationship, I never did anything sexual or even kissed. He’s my first kiss and my first sexual encounter. While we both lost our virginities to each other (he said he didn’t want to in his past relationship), he did sexual things with her. Sadly, I know many explicit details (because I asked…) and I just can’t shake it.
I am seeking therapy (it has been helping), but the feeling about this remains. I don’t talk to him about it, because it’s beating a dead horse, but I can’t help but think about the fact that his relationship was so much more serious than my past, both physically and emotionally. I know it’s irrational, and I know it shouldn’t matter to me even if he DID sleep with her.
Any advice or insight is appreciated!