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Hey guys.
So I’m a teenager and while thinking of jobs a may want I stumbled across emergency medicine doc. I have always considered a field in medicine but I’m worried I do not have what it takes, here are some of my concerns:
Unrealistic expectations: I’m worried that it is a lot more work then I think and I would not be up to it. Additionally, I’m worried that I wanna do it partly because I have seen the Pitt (great show) and am delusional about that. I’m also worried that I just want to do it because of some of the money you can make and I’m just kinda heartless.
The pain: I’m especially worried I would not be able to deal with child death and any death and honestly have no ideas how you heroes deal with it. It seems like so much sadness day after day and idk if I would be able to handle it.
Challenges: I’m worried that I’m not smart enough and just a lazy loser who would not have enough willpower. even if I tried to become a doctor and even if I did, those patients would probably be better off with a different doctor who would actually know what they are doing.
The reason I really want to be an ER doc?
I want to help. I may not make an impact in the community but if I can save at least one persons life who other wise would have died, then my life would be worth it because I would make up for the waste that I am for saving someone else. It may not change the world but it would change their world (corny and dumb I know). Please can you guys give me your honest opinions about what you think cuz currantly I think I’m just a dumb kid with delusional dreams. I also see people like you guys as true heroes and thank you for everything you do. Oh also on the off chance you think I can live up to my dreams I would enjoy any resources that could help me live up to my goal.
P.S i have already been diagnosed clinical depression