MY HUSBAND IS MY FNANCIAL STRESS
I have been in a relationship with my husband for 14 years, and now I'm starting to feel my husband is the reason why I don't feel we can get ahead in life.
I have recently started to feel that my husband is the reason why we are in so much debt and cant get ahead in our future. All my life I have worked. After my ex, I decided I will never rely on another man again until I met my husband. He is a man that like providing and taking care of his family, which I love about him. unfortunately his love for providing for his family is the reason why now i feel he is held us back. My husbands mother raised 7 children on her own, and because of that, my husband feels the need to step it up as a provider. We own a restoration renovation and new built business that has been running for about 8 years and yet we are always broke. why? because he always cared to help his family. I always felt that my 3 kids and I were his second family because he cares so much for his family. He is not a selfish man, but sometimes I wish he was. He has been providing for his family for the last five years, that he kept behind our own debts. he was so worried about getting things done on the property we all own that he kept postponing our duties.
I have worked so hard to keep my credits high and worked my butt off to not be in debt, but because the lack of our duties being attended to, we are behind 3 years of taxes. My husband is a provider but he hates paying bills. every time we have money he tends to buy things and help his family and never put things aside for us. I feel its all my fault because i just let him. I let him spend our money on stupid things, and on his family. I am not one to ask for expensive things, I don't like spending money, I am actually super cheap, but my husband as soon as he see money in the bank he doesn't want to be responsible enough to pay our bills and rather spend it on none sense. when we had a little bit of money, he decided to buy a used boat. he had that boat for 5 years and out of those 5 years he had it sitting for 3 because he didn't bother fixing. i needed a car so i can drive my kids around, he decided to buy me an infinity. we bought this vehicle from a dealership under my name and he didn't bother doing the usual yearly check up on the vehicle, so the engine gave out. He bought a work van but gave it to me because my car gave out and i loved it. he paid so little for it and it took me everywhere. my kids loved it and it gave out on me after 2 years because again he didn't maintain the van. so he decided to buy me a Lincoln navigator. He purchased this vehicle after i told him I'm good with a van or any car that takes me to point a to b. He didn't listen and bought this car used for 10 grand. turned out he had to do so much work to it and spent another 20 grand, why because he likes showing off. I was so annoyed because he spent all of our money to get a nice car that I didn't even ask for. we have 3 kids that don't value or take care of things yet. we live in the damn country with lots of dirt and rocks, why in the hell will he buy a luxurious car!! He didn't listen to me once again. There are plenty more example but I'm getting to much in my feelings so ill continue. All this, and now we are broke, in debt, and own nothing but all these used things.
I want to be something, i want to do something with my life, however i feel like I'm drowning that I don't know where to start. I feel it will just be easier to leave my husband and start all over again. Ugh I just have so much feeling, I am just writing now and not making sense. I JUST FEEL LIKE HE IS THE REASON OF MY FINANCIAL STRESS.