I’m doubting my vegetarianism.
I’ve been vegetarian for nearly ten years now, and since I was a kid my justification was just ‘I want to be vegetarian’. Recently I’ve been actually exploring the ethics of it (I’d never really thought about it before and I do believe in a lot of the ethics behind it but I’m worried if I believe that too strongly I’ll believe I’m better than people who do eat meat and it’ll cause conflict with my meat eating family, so I’ve also been trying to justify eating meat in my mind so I can remain neutral, but now I don’t know what to think. Either I continue being vegetarian but cause conflict with people who eat meat around me or I justify eating meat and then I can’t justify being vegetarian, since my justification has always just been that I’ve always been this way and I like living this lifestyle, and I’m worried that isn’t enough. I’ve been starting to miss eating meat and miss not feeling so conflicted, I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to give up my principles but I’m tired of feeling all this stress and anxiety about how to feel.