context: I'm a 23 year old trans woman. not out irl. struggling from recovering from a major OCD episode and having a tough time job searching after graduating college. I also lost a friend to suicide two years ago that led to my mental health declining.
I've noticed that I often have dreams about being on buses...not sure why but it's something pops up a lot. I was on a bus headed to a prison, I was really upset because I was being ripped away from everything, I had none of my belongings, and I hadn't done anything wrong. It was grey and dismal, specifically I was upset about not having my phone. It was intense enough that I was trembling when I woke up. but what does it mean? am I trapping myself via isolation, living through regrets? Am I scared to get older and I'm clinging onto childhood? what am I trying to tell myself?