Will I ever be truly accepted?
Hello lovely people. I don't really know how to word any of this but someone else mentioned getting imposter syndrome as someone with lighter skin, and I have much yapping and questions about it.
I'm disconnected by much more than just the colour of my skin. It was my grandfather on my dad's side who was Aboriginal but he passed when my dad was young and we don't have any documents of him, so I can't even find out what mob he's from. I feel like a fraud and I avoid talking about it because I hate to get grouped in with the people that are straight up lying about their heritage.
I don't know how to interact with mob and I feel like an idiot when they ask what mob I'm from, so I avoid associating (for lack of a better word) with groups (Indigenous clubs at school and such) to avoid questions.
I was told by my mother's side (who I live with and interact with a lot more as my dad's side is from NSW) not to worry about/talk it, not to put it on forms when prompted (I don't anyways), and to not bother with clubs or trying to connect with mob (they're all white/english descent/whatever)
Do I bother with trying to connect with other mobs? What do I say if people question me or press me? Will I ever really be accepted if I can't find my family history?