I was groomed by 2 different women as a child 15 to 18
Hi. I’m 26m and I’m autistic.
I’ve been thinking about 2 past experiences I had with older women when I was a kid, and I’m feeling kinda stuck.
Before I start, I wanna add that I don’t remember much about the conversations I had with these two women. And that I never physically met them anywhere and I just texted them on Facebook.
I never told this to anyone.
When I was a kid, I was so desperate for love, and I didn't know how to ask for it in healthier ways.
Mainly Because I was too shy and socially awkward.
When I was 15, I was talking to this
26-year-old woman whose name l can't remember. I think her name is Jackie, but we'll just call her Harley, btw, since we did some Batman role-play and she'd dress up as Harley Quinn - she was from another country.
I was attracted to her. We just talked love bombed each other and send love emojis to each other and saying how much we love each other and I was saying how much I love her.
I think I remember one time where it was my 16th birthday and I asked her to flash me and she did.
I knew I would get in trouble for talking to her, but I was so excited cause I felt like I had a girlfriend.
It just didn’t seem like something
that was out of the ordinary.
After sometime, she stopped communicating with me. I tried to talk to her but she didn’t answer.
Then, when I was 18 at this time, I met this 34 or 35-year-old woman on a Facebook fan page for a music artist. We started talking to each other, and I thought she was really pretty and I liked her.
So, I told her that I liked her and I felt bad about it, and she said something like, “Oh, no, it’s okay. It just means you have a crush and, you’re 18 so you’re a legal adult.”
We started talking to each other, sending selfies back and forth and doing the same things like with the other woman, but she didn’t send any nudes. After a while, she stopped talking to me.
I feel a little sad. I don’t think they really cared about me to begin with.
I don’t know how to process it.